Glad to hear you're dealing with this my friend, although I know from experience, it can be very hard at times. It?s like trying to heal from a severe burn! Yea, sympathy from others helps, but you still have that hurt that just doesn?t seem to go away!
However, if you do have very strong feelings of depression, then it's okay to see a doctor and I would strongly advocate it! Especially for current or x-JW?s! JW-ism has the potential to produce folks with severe, potentially extreme depression! And therefore, I highly recommend anyone with severe depression to seek medical help! I?ve lost too many JW?s who ended-it!
Please be aware that it?s not necessarily you, and probably isn?t you, given a ?normal? life-style. However, JW-ism can and has produced people with very severe depression. I find that I even have bouts of depression, which are very difficult to deal with. I?m sure there are tons of others here on this board, that will admit this too, if asked!
I wake in the middle of the night often, and all my problems with JW-ism come to mind. I sometimes find myself talking to myself; I wonder what I could have done differently! Well, the head-damage is there and can cause severe depression due to the injuries caused by being exposed to doctrinal ?radiation!? So, if you have severe depression, having been exposed to doctrinal ?radiation,? you?re not alone my friend! Many here on the board are struggling to get their ?head? back together again!
I?m also glad you got a ?head-of-hair,? that?s probably sympathetic to your problems! Doing the ?family thing? can help in getting your life back on track?wife-kids!
Please take care, and don?t feel you?ve done something naughty (as the WT would have you believe). When you?re ready for Christianity (outside JW-ism), it?s there; if you want to abstain, I can support that decision too! Many x-JW?s have to just get away from the manure! The saying is true: ?time heals all wounds!?
Hope this helps! PM-me if you want to talk on the phone. Sometimes that helps too! I?m sure there are others here too, that will try and help more closely, and do the phone-thing! Take care!
Mahalo!
Cyberguy!