i am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
Welcome!
have you started fading at all?
I ask because of going through hell with my wife for a few years, then my family, but the reaction of those to my fading has shaken my wife a bit. She is way more laid back, no longer a pioneer, and has glimpses of reason.
witnesses are so anxious, stressed, highly strung..... so much for ones who are supposed to be "the happiest people"..... thoughts?.
gee reading my earliest posts, i feel i arrived here needing a head transplant.
of course we can't ban our earliest posts, and we can't claim we were misquoted, but then again think about it, many of us come here with geoffrey jacksons brains and mind control ruling our thinking.. so i looked back at my earlier posts, and i imagined the man i was who made them.
to be honest i hardly recognized him, i feel infinitely a better and wiser less pious now, however i i don't feel so clever nor do i have such a deep religious faith.. anyway, the thread was made because i have often read posters past threads in order to get to know them better, but it never occurred to me to read my own past threads, and i learnt i am glad i had the guts to make my earlier posts, but the person that made them is in the far distant past.
witnesses are so anxious, stressed, highly strung..... so much for ones who are supposed to be "the happiest people"..... thoughts?.
Many reasons. Mainly the persecussion complex they carry. Go sit and listen to any public talk on a sunday. The first half will make you want to kill yourself because the world you live in is so "horrible".
They also live in the worst prison. The prison of constantly worrying what other jws think or you and at the same time scrutinizing and policing them.
Just sent this same pic to some friends this morning. Its precise and simple. Love it
so, i've been out for 2 years now.
just picked up and walked away from the wacky religion that tried to control every part of my life through fear and guilt.
i've been wondering as the months go by what would happen when an elder finally showed up at my door and pressed the issue as to why i ceased all activity and then tried to reactivate me.
Loose ends undermine their power
You're all in? Great
You're all out? Great
Limbo? This leaves loose ends, someone has walked away without consequences, we can't have them appearing stable and happy this way, lets pressure them!!
This is partly why I choose the fade, I feel its a constant kick in their balls, and when they act this way it is slowly opening my wife's eyes to the high pressure religion this is.
from reading crisis of a conscience and members here, i have gathered that df was originally a means to cleanse bethel and stop apostates from spreading their own thinking inside the organization.
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when did it also branch over to sinners that were struggling with an issue that relapsed on multiple occasions?
hi, only just joined.
going through a rough time at the moment and maybe this could help.
any body around 27 year old age.
a japanese sister who recently woke up revealed me that she became extremely suspicious about the organization after reading watchtower article .oct.15 2015page31.
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I think there is going to be a domino effect
was going through proclaimers book and found this little nugget on page 232. there is so much wrong with this paragraph that my head almost exploded when i read it.. however, i was thinking, perhaps those like me that are trying to fade away without "trouble", can use this in the case that an elder should start questioning with intent of escalating matters.
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They don't equate disfellowshipping with infringing on your freedom to leave.
That makes sense, but in the cult mind control you can make anything mean what you want.
Sure you got disfellowshipped...
It's f-cked up, but that is how they all think
