He never really believed or took to heart the JW religion which I refuse to call the truth.
The years before we as a family were 'contacted' we were a normal working class family with a lot of love for each other......we were happy
I have few memories of those happy times, I was 7 when my mother decided to take on the religion
That in time would include all of us........2 sisters and a brother
To me my mother was the more adept of mind....ie...would question things rather than just believe what she heard...I therefore developed a trust in my mother
In time my father questioned the religion and its doctrines etc......
I despaired in my father as did we all........why was he doing this to our family??
He DA'd himself and I was extremely upset by his actions but I was never invloved with why he had done so.....to me he just refused to see 'the truth'
In time my mother divorced my father.......(I am cutting this story down somewhat!!)
To me he was in the wrong, he rebelled and accused my mother of many things without foundation
.....in hindsight he was distraught at the ending of a family and 25 years of marriage.....
I could not see this...... and after so many events and occurrances, I didn't speak to him or see him to speak to in 2 years!!
He never involved his children....as far as he could help......in telling as to why he rejected the religion.......
He was a man that put his family first despite what he was faced with....(losing his family!!).....he tried so hard to keep his family together whilst keeping us (the children) from the reasons why he rejected the religion....WE WOULDN'T LISTEN!!
I do not blame my mother, she believes whole heartedly in 'the truth', and I respect her for that
My father died in 1997 of a heart attack, and 9 years later I am beginning to understand what he went through, ....... I failed him as his son, it was not me alone, it was what the WTS had programmed me to think. I am sad I failed a loving father with whom I wish I could reconcile my differences, but thanks to the WTS, I may never get the chance to say...'Dad, you were right...I'm Sorry!!'