For me it's being alienated by my twin daughters
((((HUGS))))
For me it was this fear of dying at armaggedon for just being human. Feeling that I'm nothing more than an ant in an ant-farm.
And also, putting my schooling on hold to get a firm hold of,"the real life"
Being socially inept to have a normal emotional relationship, but getting through it finally. But also, busy preparing for somthing, instead of just living a life, enjoying what has been given to you to enjoy that sunset, to enjoy that sunrise with a loved one. To enjoy those walks on a saturday morning with a cup of joe in your hand.
Just my two cents...
jojochan.