this is her pushing her GREAT grandaughter in a walker
that pic was just TOO cute...
makes me wanna have kids someday.
jojochan.
i'm mouthy's grand daughter... she emailed me and said y'all wanna see a picture of what she looks like.
in order to do that i had to sign up.
i hope she doesn't mind ;)
this is her pushing her GREAT grandaughter in a walker
that pic was just TOO cute...
makes me wanna have kids someday.
jojochan.
my cousin is at end of her rope..... even though she tells me how she does not want to marry a "worldly" man she can't help but to conclude that that's what's gonna happen.
she's now "talking" to a brother that's in her words "brokeback" but o.k in her opinion.
she's also frustrated that he although enjoys sneaking over her house and fooling around with her, he has made no effort to say, "roll with me, i wanna be your man.
But my other question is... Does "marry only in the Lord" really hold up when fully discussed? Does it hold any weight? I wanna dispute this how the BorG twists this scripture.
I just wanna make her think.
jojochan.
my cousin is at end of her rope..... even though she tells me how she does not want to marry a "worldly" man she can't help but to conclude that that's what's gonna happen.
she's now "talking" to a brother that's in her words "brokeback" but o.k in her opinion.
she's also frustrated that he although enjoys sneaking over her house and fooling around with her, he has made no effort to say, "roll with me, i wanna be your man.
They have a lot to offer, but the JW men in their age range just don't get it.
Because they have been told to focus more on getting a hold of the "real life"
I know because I've been told this same thing.
Also they are afraid to commit due to negative experiences that have been told to them by other brothers. It's experiences like that and being told to view them as "fleshly sisters" that makes it bad...I never could understand that kind of logic.
And yeah I'll give her that hug as well.
jojochan.
my cousin is at end of her rope..... even though she tells me how she does not want to marry a "worldly" man she can't help but to conclude that that's what's gonna happen.
she's now "talking" to a brother that's in her words "brokeback" but o.k in her opinion.
she's also frustrated that he although enjoys sneaking over her house and fooling around with her, he has made no effort to say, "roll with me, i wanna be your man.
My cousin is at end of her rope....
Even though she tells me how she does not want to marry a "worldly" man she can't help but to conclude that that's what's gonna happen. She's now "talking" to a brother that's in her words "brokeback" but o.k in her opinion. She's also frustrated that he although enjoys sneaking over her house and fooling around with her, he has made no effort to say, "Roll with me, I wanna be your man."
She starts to cry to me when she tells me this. I hurts me that she's hurt.She's like a little sister to me.
She then asks me what's wrong with her as to why "brothers" don't see her the same way "worldly"men see her. The one's on the outside that she went out with really wanted a relationship with.
I've met one of her ex'es that had called me asking about the ends and outs of the cult.This man was well off, had property, owned a business, ect. He was ACTUALLY going to join up.
"Hey, in my eyes she's worth it.I love her dearly" He said. I miss that guy.
It did'nt fall through because she got guilty and went to the brothers about it. He was her first time.
"I wished I had his baby." She said to me.
Hurt and distraught he told me that he would NEVER mess with a dub. "They obsess over religion WAY to much."
That was the last time I heard from him.
Fast forward to now. She's alone...well, except for the "brother" that calls her to have phone sex. Then asks if she's going to her meeting.
Now more than ever there's a growing number of brothers that are still little boys and not yet men whe it comes to men/women relations. Elders encourage those feelings indirectly by stating that they should "cling to one another" instead of getting freindly with the sisters sinse they serve as a distraction. These are "married"elders!
And don't EVEN bother asking for their wives opinion since 80% of them would agree for some odd reason.
I had a long talk with her last night about the plight of "brokeback" brothers in the collective.
She says she doesn't want to lose Jah's approval because of her choosing to be with someone on the outside.
I replied," I don't think that he would view you less differently. Hey, he forgave David, right?"
"But we're only supposed to marry "only in the lord", but I don't wanna settle for less either, It does'nt make sens."
I interrupted, "That line of reasoning does'nt make sense!"
She got quiet.
"I really wish that you would stop settling for less when it comes to your heart. A person is a person. It should'nt matter what he is. But unfortunatley we were taught to love with conditions. It's just that now you are beginning to think for yourself...and you are afraid to do that because you are starting to see this for what it really is....a joke, a mad circus. And if you ignor that, the sun is ALWAYS going to be in your eyes."
Time and time again she gets hurt by these "brothers" that only want the "stepford" sister. The ones that are in the Awake? rags.
You see them, with their long dresses, their plastered smiles, and thin slender bodies. Cookie cutter sisters.
My sister is not that. She's fighting her emotions when it comes to the collective and how she'll never find a man that she could respect.
She says the "truth" emasculates men, especially now that more brothers in my area and those that came back from bethel talk down to the sisters and exclusively hang together. I had gotten a phone call from a "brother" way back in day asking me if I wanted to go over and meet up with the brothers to lift weights and "build stuff with Legos."
see what I mean? And I NEVER acted like that when I was in the BorG.
I can see why she's mad.
jojochan.
i'm obsessed with new cars.
i'd trade a $50,000 car for a brand new $40,000 one the year after, and trade it again for a $30,000 brand new one the year later, and trade it again for a $20,000 one year after that.
as long as i get a new one every year or so, i love the feeling, even if it's less equipped.
I got tons of 'em... coffee, chocolate, new strange music, and time management.
But right now I've been obsessed with that show 24. I'm just now caught up on all the previous seasons.
Jack Bauer is one bad mutha.
jojochan
i feel like this all the time.
i have a husband that loves me, but i still feel like if i ever were on the singles market that i would not be a "good catch".
my health problems and most of all being a former jehovah's witness makes me feel less than perfect.. i'm having a pity party.
Oh yes... I feel that way almost every other day. With what I had been through and trying to escape the collective. I feel like what's the point? Why fight it? Just stay plugged in and deal with it.
Then the fighter in me comes out.
Pissing against the wind, ect; tell me the odds and I fight against it that's how I am. I'm a warrior and deep down inside I must survive this.
Trying to escape something like this drains, and drains one's emotions to no end.
And I know that deep down inside that I'm loved, by me. And I do my best to shine that love to others that might not have that within themselves. I know that I'm not exceptional; but I feel that that's what I here to do as well as to find what spirituality means to me.
And Ms McD, we care and love you too, keep your head up.
jojochan.
everytime, i watch the movie "a time to kill", i cry.
that movie gives me chill bumps!
that's one of the reasons why i love *************(dang!
Yeah, A time to kill was great. Especially at the end of those closing arguments. But One other film that got me was A color purple when Celie was able to see her children after all those years.That's the only one that came to mind right now.
Damn....
jojochan.
how many of you had panic attacks when you were a jw and when leaving?
i know of many jw women and a few men who suffered badly with panic attacks.
since recently having another spate of panic attacks i suddenly realised that i had been having them all my life.
Did you find panicing got worst went you decided to 'step out and away' from the JWs?
Yes... what was strange is that they never left. From time to time I still get them, but I know now what's wrong. But back two years ago, I did'nt know what was wrong. Whenever I would read something that dealt with unlearning the dogma that I was taught all my childhood I would get sick to my stomach. I would then ask myself, "why?, why am I feeling like this?"
Then I realised why...I was changing into the real me.And I guess that was why I was afraid.
I guess I still am. I still get those weeks when my head feels heavy, eyes tight, pulse racing. But at least I know what it is.
One day at a time, right?
jojochan.
just saw this on google ads.
i think he rushed into writing this book without knowing the full story.
what percentage of jws do you think are hypnotized by the stupid meetings?
I believe it...everytime I went I was put under due to extreme boredom.
Nothing surprises me anymore...lol.
jojochan.
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i can't help thinking now that without any predictions for the end, the bad history of the society and the things its done in peoples lives, which will surely continue without it radically changing and become like every other religion (which wont happen) that the society is going to just keep shrinking.. firstly, the internet is an effective means of getting the real truth out at people.
the society have tried to stop the witnesses having the independent spirit e.t.c all this must be getting very boring and making the average dub tired and if not, its sure to.. i spoke to my mum and i made the point that there is no real joy at the kingdom hall or any means to express it.. she said "well, people are under a lot of stress" and i noted how concerned she looked about that.. your thoughts?
the internet is an effective means of getting the REAL truth out at people. The society have tried to stop the witnesses having the independent spirit e.t.c All this must be getting very boring and making the average dub tired and if not, its sure to.
Yes, and also now there were more talks given at the district conventions about the "dangers" of text messaging which is something that I do not understand as to why they frown upon it. Then it hits me....communication among the collective covertly is what they discourage. ALL should be focused and be able to NOT smell what they've been shoveling.
jojochan.