just an update: I have decided to go a different route- a non christian route. Haha. well for now anyway we'll see where this goes. So I decided to be just friends with this girl and just ya nkow be there for her and have her be there for me. So yeah...go me.
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by Gizmo5013 inhey everybody i am looking for some help.
i am in love with a jw and she has told me she loves me.
we have absolutely everything in common.
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Looking for helpful advice
by Gizmo5013 inhey everybody i am looking for some help.
i am in love with a jw and she has told me she loves me.
we have absolutely everything in common.
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Hey everybody I am looking for some help. I am in love with a JW and she has told me she loves me. We have absolutely everything in common. That is outside religion. When she came into my life I was an atheist. Then I decided there must be a God because I just can't see how she could exsist without there being a great and holy being. She is very devout and can't and won't go out with a non-witness. So the only way to be with her is to convert, keep in mind that she never asked me to I just kind of came to this conclusion myself. So I kind of stand at a crossroads. I really don't know what to do. I want to be with her more than anything. I have seen here act dorky/cook/weird so I know I won't loose that part of me but I think I might feel controlled, I have always been a rebel battaling conformity and what not. So I feel I would be losing a part of myself that is dear to me by following a couple dudes in Brooklyn. I have gained a greater appreciation for God because of her and have stopped some supposedly sinful things, the biggest being gambling. So I want to thank God and show appreciation for sending an "angel" of sorts to show me he is there. Along with bad things I have found good in the religion. The no holiday thing is very appealing to me because I think holidays have become way to commercial and I had hoped to teach my children some day to not value material possessions. I have been on a spiritual quest for about 5 years ( I am 20 years old) and this is really the first thing to appeal. I have always felt religions are too materialistic so I have always thought that if I chose a religion it would be non-materialistic. I had been thinking about Buddism before she came along. It is my understanding that Buddism is more a philosophy more than a religion and that Buddists don't believe in worship of a deity. And like I said I have recently found God so this wouldn't work for me. I recently attended a meeting and it was an interesting format that I enjoyed. First doing the normal "sermon" thing and then reading the Watchtower and then having a little Q & A. But really I am finding that the bad may outweigh the good... at least in my head. In my heart I feel I should do whatever it takes to be with her and my heart has always been the stronger organ in my life. So considering this I just want some help. I mean I am almost willing to be brainwashed into this thing because ultimately it's not the most horrible religion in the world, it could provide structure in my life that I have never had before. But I am thinking that just following the bible according to my interpretations, not some guys in Brooklyn, will be good enough for God...