I know firsthand what the feeling of guilt can do to you. You start thinking in circles, lose sleep and the problem gets bigger and bigger in our mind. This can sometimes cause our thinking to go astray and lead to depression or anxiety.
You have nothing to lose by setting it aside for now. In the whole scheme of things, does it matter whether you speak to the elders now or in six months? In the meantime you can still go to meetings if you wish.
As they always say, Jehovah can read your heart. As a Jehovah's Witness, that's what counts.
While you are setting it aside, take time out to enjoy yourself with your husband - that may help you get your joy in life back!
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