As far as spiritism is concerned, I stay the hell away from it. I am convinced that there are indeed demonic forces that do influence certain people and practices such as witchcraft, black magic, and other other practices. A member of my family dabbled into witchcraft many years ago, and there were many unpleasant consequences that resulted.
As far as God goes, I hold many of the same sentiments as Synergy expressed in her post. I could not have said it better than she did. I no longer pray for selfish wants or favors, but instead pray that my needs are met and guidance in doing God's will. Actually, my faith in God has increased tremendously since leaving the organization.
To Ringo5:
I can understand how you feel. Actually, you made some very good points. I remember a brother giving a talk at an assembly and relating an experience of how a brother decided not to take a lucrative job inside the World Trade Center because of his ministry. His job would have started just days before 9/11, and he would have died. Therefore, his life was saved. There was a thunderous applause in the auditorium. I rember hearing this talk and saying: "Yeah, that's wonderful! What about the several Witnesses who did die in the attack?" The yearbooks were filled with stories of how Witnesses lives were "miraculously" spared while they were in the ministry. Yet, they usually fail to mention the times when Witnesses died in accidents, natural disasters, or while in service were captured by muslim terrorists and beheaded.
But here is something to consider. This may sound very silly to you. It did to me, until I started doing a little more research. Try researching some of the teachings behind Karma, and specifically the concepts of "Karmic Inheritence". They may seem bizarre, but they do answer many unanswered questions regarding the time of people's death and the various "twists of fate". I am not prone to grab onto these concepts and just buy into them, but I have seriously considered them and asked myself: "What if?" "What if I really am accountable for all of my actions in an afterlife?" "What if I really am accountable, in that I how I live and treat others in my life will come back to me in the next life?" The truth is, I really don't know for sure. But what I do know, is that taking the small, simple actions of gaining a "God conscousness" in my life has definately been rewarding and made me happier.
I went through a period of great cynicism and asked myself why even bother with prayer and God consciousness. But a couple of spiritual teachers I knew told me to just do it and have an open mind. I have found that my level of joy and peace has increased remarkably since engaging in intense prayer, and striving to always do good toward others in everything I do. I have found that surrendering to God has actually freed me from most of the fears about current world condtions that are going on right now. They don't have any power over me any more.
I think a quote by Herbert Spencer is appropriate. He wrote:
"There is a principle which is a bar against all information, which is proof against all arguments and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorance - that principle is contempt prior to investigation."