oldflame,
Hey bro, I totally understand your feelings. Believe me, I do. This kind of thing can really make a person become cynical. It really is a sadening thing. Don't ever let this change who you are, though. If you are a kind, decent, respectful man who really appreciates women and believes in treating them well, hold on to those qualities !! Don't ever let these heartbreaks make you start to give up some of your gentlemanly qualities! There are so many wonderful women out there who really do want a good, decent man.
You must always believe that you can get through this. This kind of thing happened to me a few years back, and I honestly did not think that I would be able to get through it. The pain was beyond words. However, today, with several years of hind sight, I can see that it was actually a blessing. I became stronger, and I am glad that we did not wind up together. Maybe after a couple of years of hind sight, you will see a good side to this.
Just keep sharing your feelings. Don't try to bottle them up, or hold them inside. Most important, don't let this erode away your good qualities. Believe in yourself !