Posts by Nowman

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Were you a non-spiritual JW?

by moshe in

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i sure tried to act spiritual in the beginning of my jw life.

i could go through the motions of being a good jw, but i just never could get turned on with being spiritual.i gave great talks and when i was an elder i could fill in for a no-show and never miss a beat.

however, my wife at the time always complained that we didn't do the family study or study the wt lesson ahead of time.

Nowman

No, but I played the act very well, just needed to wait until I was 18, bam! poof! Gone!

Nikki

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My Spiritual Awakening has turned to........

by AK - Jeff in

general apathy about religion.. i don't know precisely when it happened.

but at some point i began to stop needing anything 'organized' in my life religiously.

not too long ago - as attested to by multiple threads i started here - i was still wishing to replace the ritual of religion at the kingdom hall with some other church.

Nowman

I hate to say this because I really don't want to have a big duscussion about it...(I was worn out by the other threads about atheism/agnostic that I read but did not contribute too much)...but my life is a whole lot simpler being currently without religion.

Nikki

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If Creationism is true explain races.

by DeViL DriVeR 76 in

so the bible speaks of how multiple languages came to be in babylon with the tower of babel, you all know the story.

ok so thats the bibles view on languages but what about races?

how are some people light skin others dark?

Nowman

Funny...this thread brings back a JW childhood memory. I was in speech class and had to give a speech on a topic. My parents made me do it on how all the races came about, it was so embarrassing, I got made fun of for weeks....I never really did understand it which is why I can't remember what I told everyone so I could post it...oh well. I look forward to reading other posters, their comments. Maybe something will jog my memory...

Nikki

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Agnostics demand ambiguity!

by Paralipomenon in

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why let the theists and atheists have all the fun?

agnostics, let your voice be heard!

uncertainty for the masses!

Nowman

Wow Kid-A....your so smart....

Nikki

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Agnostics demand ambiguity!

by Paralipomenon in

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why let the theists and atheists have all the fun?

agnostics, let your voice be heard!

uncertainty for the masses!

Nowman

What do you call someone who has imsomnia, who agnostic, and is dislexic?

Someone who stays up all night wondering if theres a dog.

Nikki "the agnostic"

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Introducing two loves of my life

by Darth Yhwh in

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i got this idea from my wife.

she posted a similar topic on one of the forums she frequents.

Nowman

Oh my goodness, they are so adorable. I know what you mean, I have a 10 year old daughter Haley and an 8 year old son Dylan, and my newest addition born 2/5/07, Delanie Parker. So precious!

Nikki

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Does Being A Jehovahs Witness Lead To Disorders?

by The wanderer in

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does being a jehovahs witness lead to disorders?the life of being one of jehovahs witnesses was a challenging one at best .

and an agonizing one at worst.

i recall the days of my black depression .

Nowman

Yes. MY PARENTS caused me to have a disorder due to GUIDANCE by the WTBS. So, my parents felt I was a chubby kid, so they put me on a diet. I lost weight. Well, I continued to lose weight at one point because I was growing up, the baby fat was going away. Then my parents decide that I am losing too much weight, they wanted to me to be 105. Some days I was 103.5. If my dad decided I looked too thin that day, he would tell me to get on the scale. If I was under 105, they would force me to eat 10 cookies at 10:30 at night (After the TMS), then they would tell me to get on the scale the next morning, low and behold, I didn't gain weight from those cookies. So, the same thing would happen the next day until I reached 105. Keep in mind, I was homeschooled, pioneering, and working part time. No wonder why I didn't gain any weight, yet they never considered the fact that I was just so busy...so this process continued for a couple of years. Then I decided to take control of my life....and my weight.

I decided that I wanted to be bulemic. Got the idea from a friend. It started when I was 17 and lasted until I was 23. I broke blood vessels in my eyes all the time. I wanted to get back at my parents, why did I develope this eating disorder? Why did enjoy being 87 lbs? Why did that make me so happy....absurd.

I became a very self destructive person for awhile there...thank goodness I came to my senses. I have a life to live. I have children who I want to see grow up. See, when you had an eating disorder, it stays with you the rest of you life, I ve just learned to have some self control.

Nikki

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No outlet for unattractive men in this society...

by Gregor in

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they work hard and take care of their mothers.

they are loving uncles and kind hearted.

but they are 5'3', 290 lbs., bald at 35 and their personal interests are grounded in 3 stooges movies and star trek reruns.

Nowman

I personally believe life is what you make of it. We can sit around feeling sorry for ourselves, accepting those feelings of lonliness, or we can grab the bull by the horn and make our lives better. I choose the latter. There are things we can do to improve our confidence, do it then. Embrace life, sure we are gonna have down times, but picking ourselves up from these periods will only make us stronger.

Nikki

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You Must Marry Only In The Lord!

by The wanderer in

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you must marry only in the lord!how many times do you recall that expression blaring from .

the sound system at a district convention or circuit assembly?

you must marry only in the lord!

Nowman

Oh yes! My parents wanted me to find a "bethel" brother. Yet, me being a woman, I knew I should never "throw" myself at a brother. Thats so humiliating and unecessary. The sisters spoke of on some of these posts on this this thread, are probably so horney, they are just dieing to have sex! I truly believe that alot of my friends were getting married at 18 for this very reason, the only way they could fulfill what they wanted was to get married. For goodness sakes, at 16, they were looking to get married by the time they were 18. The hormones were going crazy.

I too even thought I was going to get married at 18, but I wound up leaving the org at 18. Here I am 15 years later...I remember when I was 17, there was this 32 year old brother (new JW), he was friends with my dad. I had the biggest crush on him. All the sisters wanted him so bad, all ages. He never knew I had a crush on him, but we pioneered together...so I took what I could get...one day my parents go on a little get away trip...I am staying with a friend at my house....he calls me! He proceeds to tell me that he wants to start "dating" because his intensions are to eventually marry me. He offered to put me in my own apartment when I am 18...my parents return from their trip...he asks to meet with them...(I am at a volley ball party), my parents absolutely refuse...I get home later that day, there is a for sale sign in our front yard...my parents tell me that I am too young to know what love is. Our house sold in 3 days, we move the next month to another KH where there are more young people...I was devestated. They gave me no emotional support...what they said was law and I did not need any consoling...The congregation was in an up roar over this, alot of sisters were so upset with me (these woman are mostly over 25), it was a scandal.

The funny thing is, is that he and I did nothing together except go out in service, pioneering. We never kissed, nothing. We were never alone. I thought I was going to be the happiest JW sister on earth if I would have married him...thankfully I got over it, and realized my parents were trying to protect me, but I just needed them to give me some understanding....not to be so cold...I was completely honest with them, but they treated me as if I was such a slut, and here I was a virgin, I was just a young girl completely flattered by the situation.

It was ingrained in my mind to get married (in the lord), pioneer, and live happily ever after! What a joke!

Nikki

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my "father" decided to send me an email!

by theinfamousone in

before we even begin, if you have not read my story, you may not understand why this is such a big deal to me... this is a part of my story and it can be found at: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/7/101870/1.ashx.

and here we go... my "father", an abusive bastard of a jw, recently sent me an email that put me in a tizzy!

it was late friday night, i had just gotten home from a shift at a local bar where i bartend on occasion!

Nowman

I was able to forgive but after my mom and I rekindled our 8 year no talk no speak period, we had a difficult time spending time with one another, she did and said everything out of guilt and I did and said everything out of being still angry. This gave me closure somewhat but it was still difficult to be with her and not think about my childhood, how could she act as if nothing happened, yet I didn't really want to talk about it either (which was not fair to her either)...I was back and forth for a period of time...

Currently, after 7 years, we both gotten thru alot together which made our relationship stronger and better. I think my mom had emotional problems (stemming from the org) and that is why she did what she did when I was child, now that she is out of the org, she has grown stronger in faith that she made the correct decision to leave the org, and she has become a better person. She has PROVEN to me that she is sorry and I OK with this.

For some, this may never happen, but it did for me. It was not an easy road, it was so hard emotionally to be with my mom at 1st.

I really understand your situation and I hope that over time that your relationship will improve or you get some closure and move on.

Take it easy, Nikki