Posts by Nowman

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Submit your essay here! [Inspired by tula and changling's threads a bit]

by AK - Jeff in

i enjoy writing as a creative outlet.

i have a few 'books' in the works.

likely they will stay in my hard drive rather than ever grace the nyt best seller list.

Nowman

When I was 16 years old, in 1990, I won a poetry contest, lets consider this an essay too, I was so proud, and my JW elder dad, and pioneer mother thought I had mental problems because of it...yet my mom read it recently and apologogized for never encouraging me to keep up with writing...its ok Mom!

"The Expression"

Allay the harshness in the expression

There is extremity in this place, please move

A jovial practice is what is favorable, yet the

practice is distorted and twisted

We yell, we yell, we yell

But not even one exclusive person hears us

What a shame a voice says

But everyone is bound by their own injury

Shall we disunite and go our distant ways?

No! Treasure your life and your race before you!

Grope for endurance, reach for vitality

And you will have the right expression

I have posted this before, but I do not mind posting again...this passage brings back alot of memories for when I wrote obsessively to escape the JW world.

Nikki

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Letter that my DFed wife received from her Pioneer Mother

by Hangin_on in

we have been dfed for almost 3.5yrs and have been trying to get back in for 2 yrs and we are getting the runaround.. anyway..... here is the letter my pregnant wife received from her elderess pioneer mother.. .

dear mary,.

i am writing to ask you please do not try to talk to me until you are reinstated.

Nowman

I have not read all the posts here, but I have three little children. My mom did not see her grand kids until 2000, when her and I reunited after she was disfellowshipped. While it was a great thing, she still does not know them, she has seen them maybe 4x. Its much better now, these things take time, but it was hard not having my mom around for all three of my pregnancies. It breaks your heart, but time heals alot of things. Even though we have a relationship again, she missed my entire 20s practically!

I just understand what you wife is going through, I grew up as an elders daughter, and with a pioneer mother, those JWs are so brainwashed and scared to think for themselves!

Nikki

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The Good, The Bad and The Troll

by outofthebox in

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the good.

thanks everybody for your warm welcome days ago (http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/141779/1.ashx).

we really enjoyed all your comments.

Nowman

Dear OOTB,

I first came here in Feb 2006, I couldn't sleep, all I would think about was JWD (and I have a family!). This was because I never knew it existed, I never knew I had a need to talk with people who have been through the same thing I went through, I was obsessed at 1st! I do not post as often anymore, and this is only because of some life changing things going on (note, good stuff). I have been trying to come back now though.

I have been out for 15 years, but you know what? I learned more about being a JW (beliefs) then when I was being raised as one. Probably, as a kid, I found alot of things so completely boring! Now that I am older (and wiser Ha Ha), I find that I am interested in religion for the educational aspect only. I am an agnostic and I like being this way. Religion, when taken to the extreme, makes people crazy.

Your story about the PO gave me some hope actually. I have not seen or talked to my dad since 1992, maybe he too is having doubts, and is too stuborn to admit it? Or he could still be a die hard JW still, who knows, but it still gave me a twinge of hope that I will hear from him some day.

Best to you OOTB (and the others), keep coming back here, it helps get through the aftermath of leaving the org eventually.

Nikki

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My story- Here goes!

by Younglove1999 in

i've just been writing away the past few days about my thoughts and feelings since my husband and i decided to finally call it quits and stop going to meetings.

in fact, he's the one who told me about this website.

he's a lurker though, so i don't think any have heard from him.

Nowman

Younglove,

Thank you for sharing your story and welcome. I have been DF'd for 15 years this October. I have a 10 year old daughter, an 8 year old son, and a 7th month old babie girl. They have never known about the JW life except for when I will tell a story. Its a wonderful feeling after I tell a story about when I was their age being a JW (if its appropriate, they do not the horrible stuff), and they look at me without any understanding. I think thats great, they are such happy little kids, and they have no understanding/comprehension of their mom having a childhood like that.

I am truly happy for you and your husband, your family. My note to you is about your daughter, in case you ever have doubts about raising your daughter without the org, its a benefit that you and your husband realized it before she was born. She can celebrate all her birthdays (but not limited to)!!!! Congratulations.

Nikki

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ALERT! SCAN OF THE LATEST "QUESTIONS FROM READERS" ABOUT BLOOD!

by deaconbluez in

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Nowman

LOL at myself, I just had to read it again, and I realized what was posted, hilarious. I am laughing so hard right now...

Nikki

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ALERT! SCAN OF THE LATEST "QUESTIONS FROM READERS" ABOUT BLOOD!

by deaconbluez in

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Nowman

GASP!

I really am utterly shocked.

I wonder what this is going to do? This is a complete lie, I was sort of queasy reading it.

Nikki

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We Are Dying!

by WeAreDying-Ophelia in

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this is my first post and might be my only post, not sure.

i've chosen to "come out" for a moment just to talk about the 30 minute change in the public talk on sundays.

my father and brother are both elders, this change was a blow to them they enjoy giving encouraging public talks to the friends.

Nowman

Wow, have not been here in awhile. I think Ophelia got spooked. Hope she comes back, it was so innocent how she started a topic and revealed something pretty important to all of us you know?

Nikki

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The Natural Beauty of Your Neighborhood

by compound complex in

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dear friends,.

one of my greatest enjoyments is a daily walk.

i see things in far greater detail than when i am driving by.

Nowman

I live in a historical town in Northern Illinois. I love the old homes with each having its own personality when I walk by. I wonder what family lived in that particular house in 1918? Were they happy I wonder? I love the various types of 100 + year old trees that are still so very healthy and rich looking. I live in a house built in 1918ish. All original woodwork. In fact, I have a picture from 1936 that I got at the county Historical Society, where there are 3 liitle kids in the winter time on a sleigh in front of the house I live in! It is so cool! My house looks the same, even though the picture was black and white. The children in front of my house looked so happy, that makes me happy.

I love to look around at my gardening too...I take walks in my neighborhood all the time, the care and concern of preservation is also what I notice. I want to preserve too. They just do not build homes like they used too.

Nikki

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..Creative Insults..

by OUTLAW in

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every once in awhile people will get choked with each other and name call..usually it`s not that creative..sh*thead..assh*le..ect..then there`s my favorites like hillary_step..that guy can insult an idiot and it`s unlikely the person will ever get it..lol!

!..that always cracks me up..lol!

!.....what i`m looking for is creative insults!

Nowman

"Nikki, I think you are a noble person for how you put others first before yourself, but you really are a people pleaser".

Said to Nikki June 5th, approx. 7:30pm.

Nikki

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Were you ever a victim of jealousy?

by Frequent_Fader_Miles in

were you ever a victim of jealousy in the congregation?

j-dubs love to portray their gatherings as a "spiritual paradise", while in truth and in fact they're actually more like a "cain and abel" sitcom.

Nowman

Yes, yes, yes! In fact, one time I moved to a new congregation, this girl I knew from the circuit wound up being at my new hall, she approached me and said "Nikki, I used to HATE you because you are pretty". I was 17 at the time, I had the same insercurities as any teenager would at that age. I remember feeling terrible about what she said. Yet, we later became good friends, but then she started recording music for me on tapes like every other day, it was kind of weird. Shortly after that, I left the org.

Nikki