I left the org 15 years ago, I wouldn't say I felt alone only because I had worked for the same company from age 12-20, so alot of people that I grew up with were not JWs and offered to take me in when I decided to leave hime.
But, lately I feel alone. I know this is just something I am going through now. 9 months ago, I left a company I was with for ten years, I should have left a long time ago. Yet, because I was there so long, I had some close friends where we did so much together all the time. Perhaps that was not good because we worked together. Well, when I left the company, they cut me off, stopped talking to me. Its a long story. My MIL still watches my former best friend's 2 little girls. My MIL cannot stand my former friend. How is that right? She comes over every night to tell me something negative. In fact, my ex and his wife have now started to hang out together on occasion, but my ex never cared for my former BF? The company that I worked for, this former BF told me 99% of the things going that were wrong with this company, which is a major factor as to why I left. But she cut me off the day I left along with others.
It was like I left the JW religion. I just feel that the 10 years were so wasted with people that actually treated me like crap! I have just come to the realization that I may have to start all over with friendships, I want to surround myself with positive people and not those that are going to bring me down. Its just difficult now because I have never been through something like this, and it hurts. The principal of the matter is so wrong, and I feel so screwed over.
In the end, I will stand tall. I am human and I am not made of stone, I have feelings. Just wanted to vent, certain things have gone on lately that make me feel so bad, and frankly while my MIL is still involved with my former friend, I will never hear the end of it. Which means, its a constant reminder.
Nikki