Dear Kristofer
Thank you for your imput! I welcome all advice and comments!! I guess you know better then anyone here how helpless and frustrated i feel! There's some self loathing here as well!! I guess deep down i'm feeling that if i can take it this long "seven years next month" then i can keep going!! This may not make sense but i would rather this happened at the age i am now "almost 60" then at say 20!! I may have gone nuts with all the stress! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!
Paula