Welcome to tthe board!
Funny you should post this now - I was just thinking about this same subject last night. I tried to have a relationship with Jah but found it difficult to "draw close" to someone who must might turn around and kill me and my children at Armageddon if I hadn't "done enough". I struggled with how to love someone who was so harsh, and as others have described the old testament YHWH, jealous and angry.
I quit praying for many years and just went about life. A few years back I started reading my bible again and discovered a number of truths about Jesus and God that I had never been taught as a JW. I learned of a Jesus I never knew, and began to relate to him and want to pray directly to him - being that I still didn't feel comfortable with God. So I did - I started addressing my prayers to both Jesus and God. I felt much more comfortable doing that, and eventually was able to pray directly to God again. Of course, I no longer fear Armagedon and don't believe he will destory me for not "doing enough" so that could also contribute.
He has answered many prayers - and many of those are answers that were beyond my own control - things I could not have subconcsiously MADE happen.
I relate to many on the board here who feel it's next to impossible to have a relationship with someone who does not reciprocate a response - I also struggled with that. Recently I have seen responses, but it would be much easier to have a relationship if the other party would just appear and talk one on one with us.