I have read this thread with great interest. I am still active (I was just out in service yesterday...yippie for me!). Anyway, while I am still in, my heart and mind are pretty much out.
Almost all of the comments made above hit home. Prisca made an excellent observation about the scribes and pharisees in modern-day form. I have always felt that the application was not really fulfilled in Christendom, but rather in congregations of jws.
Then there was the generation thing in 1995. For years prior, I had checked almost every issue of the Awake, looking at the masthead and waiting for their "before the generation that saw the events of 1914 passes away" change or get deleted, and sure enough, it happened. The article that explained the change did not convince at all, and their blaming "some of Jehovah's people" for speculating about certain dates angered me, since it was the FDS that fostered such speculation. I remember sitting at that WT study, thinking, hey, I never came to such conclusions on my own, this what I was TAUGHT to believe. We were TAUGHT to expect the end within a certain time-frame; we did not make it up on our own, and yet that is what was being implied.
There were many other factors responsible for my heart and mind not really being "in" the organization, there are too many to mention here.
Oh, berten, I like your idea of slipping out to the local arcade, LOL! There is a Dunkin Donuts not far from my KH, and I have been thinking of slipping out to enjoy a snack and some coffee during the meetings. During circuit assemblies, I have been known to leave and snack in the car for awhile. I also used to go driving around during the sessions with another brother when I was a teenager. I guess old habits never die, LOL.