Hi Everyone,
I'm sure some of you have thought about this before...
I've been thinking... you know the part in the matrix where neo is offered the red pill or the blue..
well you can see where im getting.. inside the org most of the brothers and sisters are oblivious to the
real truth..
If you had the chance not to know the real truth .. would u stay that way ? not knowing any different??
I think the reason im asking this is because i am feeling quite torn at the moment and its eating me inside !!
I have some really great friends in the " truth " and im afraid i will lose them .. it is a kind of security..
It's like the guy in the Matrix movie who wants to get back in so he makes a deal with the enemy..
he says " as long as i dont remember anything "... I wish at times that i never came to this site ... . but now that im learning
i know i cant really go back from here.. i cant forget what ive seen..
I feel that im going through different stages.. and i may need a psych help.. or something
I feel that im really cynical abut everyone and everything.. and abit bitter.. ( is this part of the process?? )
Please share some of your advice and experiences!
Thanks in advance !!
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