erm, according to my status thing on the left I am no longer a newbie, however................
I was a witness in the north east of England back in 1985 ish to 1993/4 ish so this was pre generation doctrine new light blah blah. My mother had raised me as a dub till i was 13 but she was quite abusive (no shock there lol) and I placed myself in foster care where to my surprise I ended up with...........another witness family. In all fairness to this family they did try very hard to help me when I was going through quite a typical rebellious teenage phase. I may add that at this point I actually did believe all of the crap I was forcefed at the KH, as in I genuinely believed the world would shortly be destroyed and that Jah would be questioning me over my frequent erm.......lapses in self control lol.
Then I started to see
My first problems with everything revolved around ethics, I was scheduled for a bible reading at the age of 14 on the passage of the bible that deals with the angel killing the 185,000 assyrians, the more I read this the more I was disconcerted, 185,000!!! that is a lot!!! Men who had families, who were doing there job, who knew nothing of this special God. Why didn't He teleport them away? Or turn the assyrian king's heart. I delivered the talk with a sly nod to my feelings which a comment of "some...........could say God was cruel killing 185,000 men in one night, some could say they were innocent men with families........however" I was looked at in a suspicious light after that, at least it looked that way to me.
Ove rthe next year I started to study science a lot more, things just did not add up, the flood, fossils, dinosaurs, I saw that I could not argue my case when science conflicted with what I had been taught in the hall.....then the penny dropped. My belief system was like a house of cards where cards one by one had been slowly pulled away to finally the house just collapsed. I woke up one morning and realised I was an atheist...that was a strange day
Since then i left, never looked back, had a kid, got educated, and got a great big fat social circle woohoo for me!!