Wow, REM. This is big stuff. When the elders tried to get in touch with me, via e-mail, I was nervous just reading what they'd written. The idea of meeting with them in a judicial setting ... well, it must be about a billion times more nerve-racking than getting ready to deliver a #4 talk!
I'm sure, of course, that you'll represent yourself well. It isn't a question of doubting the decisions you've made or feeling guilty, but rather facing the men who've tried to shape your life since you were a kid and telling them why you reject their ways. Anyway, because you represent yourself well, you'll probably be disfellowshipped.
How is your wife doing in all of this? What does she think? What is her relationship with her parents like?
Please post what happens. I'll be thinking of ya Monday evening (which will be Monday afternoon where you are).
Dedalus