Gumby
For many, not knowing is ok by them. They live life to the fullest and enjoy life in not knowing all these things i've mentioned. I wish I were as they are in not knowing but unfortunatley for me personally, i'm not ok with this. On one hand i'm glad to know the truth about the witnesses but on the other hand i'm left void.
I have thought alot about your topic and discussed it with my husband. He does not post on here, but we are on the same page of misery about the devastating dissilutionment that sets in once one knows that the wizard is controlled by the man behind the curtain, and no amount of yelling by the man to pay no attention to him but to look to the wizard can make you believe again.
We devoted more than thirty years to believing that the big A was right around the corner, didn't take vacations because we would miss service and/or meetings, felt smug in our knowledge that the people around us were doomed, felt the guilt of never measuring up completely, and all other things good dubs do.
I had always thought (and felt kinda bad about it) that people like Mother Theresa were wonderful, caring individuals, even though not JWs. Well, I still do. There are people who care about their fellow man and those are still the ones I admire.
I also think about the knowledge I do have about Jesus. He went where the people were, healing all that came to him, no matter how tired or hungry he was. He did have the power to do good, and used it in this way. He did not complain about the people who came to him, even though they may have walked for miles and smelled bad or had horrible sores on their bodies.
I would really like to know how Jesus wants me to worship God. I wish I did have the answers to the questions the way I once thought I did. I do want to worship in the right way. I can only rely on the knowledge that I love the man who did so much good for others, even as I love Mother Theresa for helping the poorest of the poor. (By the way, I was never Catholic even before JWs) I would love to be in the midst of people who feel for others the way Jesus and MTheresa did. Will this ever happen? I want to hope.
Yes, I feel the void........
Quandry