Many of us who were once Jehovah's Witnesses had a measure of happiness in our lives. For me, I had a hope in the future, I had answers as to why we are all here, I believed in a loving god who looked after me and cared about me, I had answers to all of lifes big questions.
When I found out the truth about the witnesses, I was lost in a great big world and now had no answers other than the fact that what I once believed was "the Truth" in actuality wasn't the truth.I now had to start all over in my search for truth. For me, it wasn't long before I found what I thought was the truth since I always believed in the bible. I went to various churches and began to believe that truth rested in Jesus and gods word the bible. In time I began to read about the sceptical side of the bible.....this being a result of being a member of JWD and being around folks who had been where I had been and was searching also for truth.
In time, I personally began to doubt the bible after many years of believing it to be truth and having all the answers I wanted and yearned for in life.
Now where am I? For me personally, i'm now lost. I doubt the bible as being authored by god, i'm an agnostic, I haven't a clue as to whether there is a god who loves me and the rest of mankind and whether there is a plan for all of us, i'm terrified at the thought that there might not be anyone out there in the heavens who made me and the rest of us, and I haven't a clue as to where to start in finding out the truth about life and I highly doubt i'll ever know before I die.
For many, not knowing is ok by them. They live life to the fullest and enjoy life in not knowing all these things i've mentioned. I wish I were as they are in not knowing but unfortunatley for me personally, i'm not ok with this. On one hand i'm glad to know the truth about the witnesses but on the other hand i'm left void.
So the question for me is.....am I happier in knowing the truth ( about "the Truth")
How about you personally......are you a happier person?
I'm not one who can go back to believing a lie just to have answers although many have and they can pretend. I did however go back for the sake of my family because life for me was too awful without them and I couldn't cope. I now have my family back but the difference now is.....I have no hope for me and my family and so this question now hits me in the face each and everyday........am I a happier person in knowing the truth?
Feel free to blast away......just don't hit me in the nutsack.
Gumby