Diner this is DevilsAdvocate_DA
I would like to say of all the comments that were given you, I as an oldtimer in this organization, believe that Zev has given you some fine advice. Especially what I have underlined. I have taken the liberty to edit his/her thoughts just a bit.
Take some time to look a tad deeper my friend. I don't have all the answers, and I dont even know where I will go from here...but belief in Jehovah God, his son Jesus Christ and the Bible (as a whole) are rock solid. Believe in "man" and follow "man" [man=g.b.=wtbts] and you might as well stick a ring in your nose for them to lead you off. And where will they lead you?
Diner, your first alligence is to the one's ZEV stated -- Jehovah and Jesus. True they are using the organization WBTS to accomplish their aims. But, just like Isarael of old, whom Jehovah used, in time their haughty heads got in their way. Jehovah took action to remove them from his service after their usefulness was need no more. C.E. 70. What Jehovah will do with these haughty men and women (sometime when you are behind the lock doors you come to find out that what come out of GB's mouths is the words of their wives) neither you or I nor anyone else on this board knows what He has in store ( You need to read YouKnows last post over on H20). All I do is sit and wait, sit and wait -- just as they are doing ---- watching the human family as we put on a show.
1975 was a very hard year for me. I never did believe what was being said. At the time my wife and I had many Bible studies. In fact at one Circuit Assembly of the thirteen person baptized twelve were ones we studied with. The hard time was, the constant effort my wife and I had in down playing the 1975 hysteria. Believe me it was there. But not for us. We could find no Bibical proof for such statements. So we would not let it enter our minds as a safe guard. There were plenty other good things to talk about. Happy to say, all the ones we studied with are still hanging in. The same with the one we have studied with after the 1975 period. We stress getting to know Jehovah, Jesus Christ, God Word the Bible, and individuals in the organization that are compatable with them, but be friendly with all, just like we do with a clerk or cashier as the locate grocery store.
Diner, I could go on and type twenty or fifty pages on this subject, but of what value, crying over spilled milk is a waste of time, plus it only adds to the waste I caused in the first place. Let it go. Move on with whatever life style you personally want to make you happy. Leave things in Jehovah Gods and Jesus Christ hands and have a life based on Gal. 5:22-23, if you want.
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