seaking sanity:
I just want to be whole. I want to be one. I want to be filled not empty and hallow. I want to be able to say 'YES' and 'NO' and MEAN IT! without feeling the way I do when I say these things. I want completion. I want independence from my mind. It's driving me crazy. I want it reprogrammed ......so I'M THINKING not like 'oh my god i have to do this'
Slow down and breathe. You sound like a very dear soul. Drink a warm cup of tea, or drink a beer and decide what is important to you as a person. Do not let others decide it for you, especially a new girl friend as wonderful as she may be.
What do you feel strongly about? Start at the beginning of yourself! Simple questions: Do you like order? Or are you naturally messy, Do you love to have pets, or can't stand them, What do you do for a living right now?...is it what you want to do or would you like to go further?
Do you like sports, or hiking, or walking. or would you prefer to watch.? What are your favorite foods? Do you like to cook, or do you like to go out to eat? Are you a car aficionado, ? The list is endless. Write down everything you enjoy and work from there.
What are your favorite scents, tastes, foods, music. pet peeves, Make a list and keep going. You are unique. No one can answer these questions for you, and no answer is wrong.
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You need to discover who you are.