im just wondering how does it play on your mind that we know we are going to die at armageddon because i knnow its going to happen
I will never forget some advice i was given about the time i was leaving the WBTS. I met this girl at college at the time, after a conversation we both had we realised how we were both brought up as witnesses. She had left a couple of years earlier, turns out she was a lesbian and had the dilemma that being brought up as witness would bring. One day a few of us were out and she could tell i was a bit troubled and had things on my mind, you see at the time i was splitting up with my ex wife, we had 3 small children and on top of that i was leaving the WBTS. We got talking about Armaggedon and i said but it may come tomorrow, which i was worried about. She said to me and i never will forget it, " if armaggedon came tomorrow wouldn't you rather live your life happy and die at armaggedon than to live your life forever being unhappy ". She said, "why be something that your not, that would be a false and wrong way of living". She said that she would rather live one day, one week, one year, ten years happy, being true to herself and die at armaggedon than to live a lie to try to get through it.
That conversation always stook in my mind and i will never forget it. I have since lost touch with her, this was about 12 years ago and i would love to see her, if only to tell her how much that advice has meant to me. Now though, through years of education and self examining have passed i do not believe in armaggedon or those beliefs, i see them as a control thing the WBTS uses.
Hope this helps
Paul