Oh yeah tired was it. I was a working mom trying to do the JW thing for years, although I wasn't exactly zealous. Then I went through a rough patch, in the same 5 years I had a suicidal daughter (2 attempts and multiple hospitalizations). My ex husband almost died twice, then couldn't work for 3 years. My job was extemely stressfull. because of all that I got Fibromyalgia. Tired was my middle name. Meetings were just burdensome to me, plus boring. And the never ending guilt, guilt guilt. My only salvation that I was such a non-entity in the congregation (Are you new here?), the elders left me alone for the most part.
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Did anyone just get tired?
by woodmonkey induring my days as a witness, which was only about 10 years ending circa 1981, most of my memories revolve around how totally exhausted i always felt.
toward the last, i was dragging my family out to the five meetings a week and working fulltime and getting my quota of publisher hours on the little sheet every month, even doing the temporary pioneering bit now and again.
when i had the ministry school, i even worked a four day week to be able to give every talk on the program in case someone did not show up, which frequently happened in our little congregation west of fort worth, tx.
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The most annoying issues you found within the organization were ...
by The wanderer inuntitled document <!-- .style1 {font-family: verdana} .style2 {font-family: verdana; font-style: italic; } --> the things that seemed to bother us the most before leaving the organization there were a number of.
things that used to bother me within the organization.. for example, the time that the organization use to.
absorb, it seemed that i gave more than i received.
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For me it was time also. As a working mom, it was hard to do all the things I was supposed to. I once figured out that if I did everything the society wanted me to, I would have maybe 15 minutes a week of
me time". Then I had health and family problems, and it became impossible to even do the little I was doing. I just gave up, I got tired of feeling guilty all the time and never feeling like it was enough. I drifted for about 10 years with only sporadic meeting attendance before I made a break. -
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Inappropriate, uncontrollable hilarity during prayers
by restrangled inanother thread just reminded me of this.
did any of you go in to hysteria during prayers due to sounds, smells, or faces being made etc....especially the long ones?.
these are some of the better memories for me.
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LisaRose
This wasn't during prayer, but a meeting. My under 2 year old daughter said quite loudly, "I want a beer!". *She was precocious in talking but I think she meant a root beer, as it was hot and I don't think she ever drank real beer*. I tried to shush her and she said even louder, "No, really I want a BEER!!" The funniest thing was the brother sitting behind me leaned forward and said "Don't worry I want one too!".
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I have read it and it was great. Very well written and a great story, although painfull for us who have been there. The story is that this girl's mom married a horrible man who abused her and her brother. . The brothers did nothting. She was able to escape both the situation and the JW's and live with her father after a few years of this.
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any one want to talk
by ttforb ini was a jw and i d/a myself.. i have sinced married and had two wonderful kids, my parents are still jws, and hardly ever see my kids.
i do not regret d/a myself,my parents are the ones missing out on their grandkids,.
i was accused of doing something and the brothers acted like they did not believe me, i told them that the only ones who mattered,was me the other person and god.
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LisaRose
You should read "the Truth Book, Growing up abused among Jehovah's Witnesses", by Joy Castro.
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Watchtower Camaraderie
by The wanderer inwatchtower camaraderie
after having spent years as one of jehovah's witnesses.
the next day?going back to the organization .
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LisaRose
For me I was more lonely in the org as my hub was DF'd and I worked full time and wasn't active in the cong. But still, It's difficult at first because you are used to ignoring 'worldly' people and not making friends outside the org. It takes time to learn to relate to regular people. I now have way more friends than I did when I was a JW. I know all my neighbors, have work friendships, one who turned out to be my very best friend. I also volunteer in a community group. Take a class, strike up a conversation with people you see. Just living a normal life you will meet new people. Be open, don't judge people on their appearance. It's a whole new, wonderful world, full of possibilities
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Anxiety symptoms
by Silvia Plath inever since i stopped my study i have gotten completely depressed, unable to sleep, i really depended on my study group to keep me sane and give me purpose but now my bi-polar symptoms have come back with a vengeance.
i thought about going to another church because ruminuating on a creator did help me sleep at night and now i have not slept for four days.
i never realized how much i was becoming dependent on the religious structure.
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LisaRose
I've had great success with meditation for anxiety and other things. Not sure how that works if you are bi-polar. I agree you need to see a doctor. For occasional sleeplessness, good old Benedryl works for me, very mild tho, doesn't work for all.
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What's the worst dish your mother ever made you eat?
by mrsjones5 inyep folks this is a fluff topic .
mine is yellow squash with onions.
it's a truely hideous dish.
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LisaRose
I had the same pea adversion. I can eat them now, but as a child I thought they were fuzy. So I never forced my kids to eat anything, I didn't see the point. However my paranoid child used to ask everytime we had meat if it was liver. I never cooked liver and never would have, she just wanted to be sure....
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my story
by jaberwalkie inthis is a difficult thing for me to do, i used to be a jehovahs witness 20 years service as a pioneer.. last thursday it was announced from the platform at my local kingdom hall that i was disfellowshiped.. it was a bit of a shock.
i still have a deep sence of anger at what happened to me and its so unfair.. it started 3 years ago when i began to feel ill and i missed a couple of meetings.
the elders were wonderful and came round and cheered me up.
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LisaRose
**BIG HUG**. You poor thing, why would you go crawling back to those who judged and ignored you? Beg forgiveness because you were depressed?? I don't think so. My last years were pretty bad too. I was mostly ignored. Disfellowshipped hubby, worked full time, suicidal child, health problems (Fribromyalgia) and sporadic meeting attendance. Every one always acted surprised I hadn't given up yet. The guilt was constant and I was very, very lonely. Seek out a support group of loving, non judgemental people who can help you heal emotionally. I've been out 6 years and would NEVER go back. ICK. I've never been happier in my life.
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The Truth Book
by LisaRose ini just finished reading "the truth book", escaping a childhood of abuse among jehovah's witnesses, by joy castro.
it's very well written.
it's about a young girl who lived hell on earth (her jw stepfather, beat starved and molested her).
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LisaRose
I just finished reading "The Truth Book", Escaping a childhood of Abuse among Jehovah's Witnesses, by Joy Castro. It's very well written. It's about a young girl who lived hell on earth (her JW stepfather, beat starved and molested her). She escaped and cames to terms with the abuse and effects of the JW Mind control. Its a great book for any ex JW or JW.