This is a difficult thing for me to do, i used to be a Jehovahs witness 20 years service as a pioneer.
Last Thursday it was announced from the platform at my local kingdom hall that i was disfellowshiped.
It was a bit of a shock. I still have a deep sence of anger at what happened to me and its so unfair.
It started 3 years ago when i began to feel ill and i missed a couple of meetings. The Elders were wonderful and came round and cheered me up. My dear friend and pioneer partner came up and kept me company.
Then for some reason the elders stopped calling and my friend told me that a roumer had started that i was faking my illness, I was shocked and i was on the phone to the elders. The elders told me that there was nothing they could do and i had to pull myself together. I began to feel isolated and i took an overdose of sleping pills.
The elders told me that i had sinned against God and i had to ask for forgiveness. I was mortified. These people had abandoned me for roumers and untruths. Anyway, i was diagnosed with having ME. I did not go to a single meeting for over a year, DId no field service and handed in no reports. The elders told me that i had to repent or i would be disfellowshiped? I felt that i had done nothing wrong. ANyway today as i went to the doctors, i saw my friend and she just ignored me. I knew this person for over 10 years and i felt alone for the first time. All i could do was sstand a cry.
Have i done something wrong? Should i go back and seek repentance? I just dont know.
Forgive me if i have went on for a bit, but i feel so alone and let down, i had no were else to turn to.