Emy, that was exactly my experience. It took time for my full normal rational thinking to kick in. I've been out 8 years (and inactive for many years before that). When I first left, I still thought it was the truth, but just couldn't hack it anymore. Without the constant brainwashing, of course I no longer believe that. I've pretty much broken every taboo at this point except for donating blood. For some reason that still seems wrong. Wouldn't turn down a transfusion if I needed one though. So I guess there is still a little. teeny bit of jw left in me. I still believe in God. Don't believe the bible is God's word anymore. Don't go to any church, after 30 years of 5 hours of meetings a week, I not sitting in a church on Sundays. Ick. I am a spiritual person, I still work to improve myself and be of help to others. I just can see things as right or wrong, black or white, no shades of gray, like many churches do. I am happier than I ever was as a JW. LIfe is good.
LisaRose
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My first week here ...thoughts
by emy the infidel ini have been hear for about a week now, and have not been is such a strange mental place since i was a witness.
it has been good, the programming still kicks in however, but i'm getting less and less afraid to reason with it.
i got my coc book yesterday.... i sat looking at it and thinking of all the years i avoided it, mischaracterized and marginalized it, w/out having any specific knowledge of what was actually in it.
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How Did The "Shepherds" Treat You?
by minimus indid you look forward to shepherding calls?.
were you refreshed after talking to the elders?.
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LisaRose
They mostly ignored me, as my Hubby was DF and my meeting attendance was spotty. When they did, it was more of a nag type thing. I would feel depressed afterword. The last time it was the CO. They told me I was in severe spiritual danger. After years of being told what a bad JW I was, I didn't care. I still thought it was "the truth" at that point, but I just couldn't do it any more or even pretend I intended to. They knew nothing about me or what I had been through and I couldn't relate to them. I made the final break shortly after.
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Thinking about Halloween yet?
by Sassy inhave you ever dressed up??
care to share pics (if you can) of your costumes of the past?
or what you would like to wear this year?.
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LisaRose
I have my own small shop and I've had Holloween decor out for a month now. It's selling very well - it's all vintage style Holloween. I also dress up every year. I made a very over the top Flower Fairy outfit - I call it the Fat Fifty Flower Fairy.
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The-Borg comes to JWD! Welcome!
by nvrgnbk ingreat posting!.
keep it up!.
so many are waking up.. as you suggested in your first topic thread, the jw organization is self-destructing.. .
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LisaRose
I can see resistance is futile. Welcome to the board
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DO YOU know how to be WRONG?? Should you TRY?
by Terry ina willingness to be wrong is the beginning of intellectual honesty.. are you willing?.
it hurts to be wrong.
it is often humiliating.
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LisaRose
Excellent food for thought.
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Funniest / Goofiest songs you ever heard
by Nosferatu inlist some of the funniest and goofiest songs you've ever heard!.
i'll start..... 1) gin and juice - the gourds.
a redneck snoop doggy dogg cover.
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LisaRose
Fish heads, fish heads, rolly polly fish heads,
fish heads, fish heads, eat them up, yum!
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Anyone else setting up the Christmas tree or thinking of it already?
by WTWizard inbeing that i like the looks of the christmas lights and that i have had 20 years of not being able to set them up, i have already taken the step of setting up the christmas tree.
on it are huge amounts of lights--12 sets of c6 led bulbs (they come 60 to a set) plus a set of 70 miniature leds for the top region.
i ran out of c6 bulbs about halfway up the tree (not to worry, i have the other 6 sets on order and they should be arriving today).. there are some things to think about when setting up a holiday tree out of "season".
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LisaRose
I have a shop, so I have to start thinking about it really early. Holloween stuff is already out, and is selling well, so there are a LOT of people out there buying that. Xmas merchandise is coming the first week in September and will be out by the end of the month, latest. I personally don't do my own until after Thanksgiving. I found I really enjoyed decorating for Christmas after not doing it for a while, so I have a lot of stuff.
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Swiffers Do you use one?
by Lady Lee ini have one and use it for both wet and dry.
it gets pricey since you have to keep buying the cloths.. a couple of weeks ago i was in sears and they were having a demonstration of a swiffer type mop but you didn't have to throw awy the cloths.
simply remove from the cloth and throw it in the washer.
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LisaRose
I don't use swiffers as I feel they are too priecy and not good for the environment as you have to keep buying the refills. I like the microfiber idea tho- I may give that a try.
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What Things Would You Not Have Done As A JW That You Would Do Now?
by minimus inas witnesses, we were very concerned that we might offend somebody's conscience and our actions reflected that.
if someone might've been "stumbled" by our actions or speech, we would make sure we would do everything possible to not upset another fellow brother or sister.. i would not have gone to an "r" rated movie.
now, i go to any rated or unrated movie because i don't give a sh*t what smeone might feel over my choice.. what things are you free to do without worrying that someone might be disturbed over it?
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LisaRose
Think for myself.
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LisaRose
This is too true. I started out as a 6 - my husband was DF early on in the marriage. Slid to a 7 as heath problems and issues with kids (one child suicidal, other wouldn't go to meetings) left me missing many meetings. I never went to college, but did work my way up into a professional job - systems analyst. That seemed to push me down to 8 status, although I didn't talk about it. I was a complete non-entity at the KH, I might as well as been invisible.