I would question how much good you are doing yourself or anyone else. It's great to plant seds of doubt, but if you can't water and cultivate them (which would expose your apostasy) those seeds will not grow. In the mean time you are going along with a lie and contributing in many ways to the organization you claim to hate.
In the mean time you are living a life that is not in keeping with your values. You are used to it and think it all doesn't affect you, but trust me, you are paying a price, a fact which will be brought home to you once you really leave and see what you were missing. I know because I stayed far too long, I wasted years, the best years of my life really. I am much happier and living a great life now, but it makes me a little sad to think what my life could have been.
It's your life, you obviously will chart your own path, actually I admire your independent spirit, but I wanted to give you something to think upon.