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  lost

  by depressed in

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  just wondering if anyone else feels the same way.. i've been out of the organization for about 4 years, but i still love jehovah and jesus, and i want to serve them the right way.

  does anyone here feel a great sense of religious confusion now that you are not attending meetings?.

  at the moment, i feel miserable, since i'm going through a divorce.

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  i will add that even though its not a cure, i have found this place refreshingly comforting. In general the people here are incredibly kind and compassionate, much the opposite of what the wts wants everyone to believe about so called "apostates". Its very reassuring for me to know i am not alone. We all go through crap some worse than others. The people here seem to guinuinely care about each other and for that matter everyone so much more than dubs especially the elders who always seemed to have a hidden agenda.
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  Thinking of getting reinstated? Read my story.

  by Jez in

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  a lot has happened to me since march.

  i have learned so much.

  i hesitated to put this out in jwd, but i now think that if it helps one person, it will have been worth it.

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  just read this post and its very inciteful. sorry you had to endure it.
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  Confessing to the elders...

  by tan in

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  has anyone ever had to confess their sins to the elders...left out some of the details or "other gross" sins...but wondered if you were truly forgiven of your sins?

  or was reproved and given back your priviledges but knew that you didn't tell everything.

  how did you feel afterward?

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  first time i held back some stuff and was publicly reproved. the second, five years later, i spilled it all every little detail they wanted and some they didn't and that time they df me go figure
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  lost

  by depressed in

  1. jw
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  just wondering if anyone else feels the same way.. i've been out of the organization for about 4 years, but i still love jehovah and jesus, and i want to serve them the right way.

  does anyone here feel a great sense of religious confusion now that you are not attending meetings?.

  at the moment, i feel miserable, since i'm going through a divorce.

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  searching4truth

  I also started pioneering at 16 and i went to bethel at 19 (left when i was 21) was kinda the golden boy of my area then a few years back sort of fell off the deep end and got df a year and a half ago. started discussing some of the finer points of the org with a friend i grew up with and realized some things don't add up. Ended up sealing the deal with reading "Crisis of Conscience" which shed any remaining faith in the "slave" that lingered. Somewhere in there i managed to get married to a witness girl that had be newly reinstated and have had an extremely rocky marraige. Two weeks ago we seperated due to her unfaithfulness and since have discovered it wasn't the first time so i am currently struggling with the fact that i need to divorce her, even though i do love her she isn't going to change and i know it. all this and my family just keeps telling me go back to meetings and get reinstated and all will be better but they don't know my lack of faith in the org. But at the same time my natural instinct is to turn there since thats what i know, thats where i was raised. So I too feel lost not knowing where to turn. it keeps me up at night the uncertainty of where to turn. I so want to do the right thing spiritually but what is that. I sympathize with you. You are not alone
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  franz alive or dead?

  by searching4truth in

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  anyone know if ray franz is still around?.

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  email address?
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  franz alive or dead?

  by searching4truth in

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  anyone know if ray franz is still around?.

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  searching4truth

  anyone got an e-mail on him
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  franz alive or dead?

  by searching4truth in

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  anyone know if ray franz is still around?.

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  searching4truth

  does ever go on any message boards like this
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  How much did you sleep at the conventions/assemblies?

  by avidbiblereader in

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  a lot!!!

  i have done my share of sleeping at conventions with the elbow in the side, same ol same ol.

  you would know which scripture was coming before they ever said it.

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  i would close my eyes for a few minutes and my sister would elbow me. I would just grin and tell her to leave me alone i was "praying". or i would play chess on my cell phone with my friend. the only convention i didn't sleep through was during a particularly exciting period during my life when wife and i stayed high on cocaine the whole covention. of course we stayed in the hotel room having sex most of time we could only sit through an hour twice then resumed more entertaining activities like more sex. we kept telling our family she was ill
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  franz alive or dead?

  by searching4truth in

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  anyone know if ray franz is still around?.

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  does he accept correspondence of any sort and will he reply?
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  franz alive or dead?

  by searching4truth in

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  anyone know if ray franz is still around?.

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  anyone know if Ray Franz is still around?