((((Stacey)))), thank you for sharing.
I understand the high highs and the low lows of dear friends with bipolar. The ever present conversation of suicide, along with some of the happiest times I can remember. It's exhausting... He was so lucky to have your family as friends. So very lucky.
Whatever help we can be or do for you, we are here. Don't forget the great number of people here who "get it." We are all crying with you.