Posts by dottie

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Sharring my secrets..continues..and the end

by kls in

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let me say first i am not telling this for sympothy in any way, my growing up is a lot better then a lot of kids,the horror some of these defenseless babys and children have, the death penalty is to good.the reason i call these threads ..my secrets, is something you dont talk about outside those walls as i am sure other's on this sight can relate to.i am telling my story so many of you can understand why i am trying so hard and long to get my husband out of this sick cult.he is all i have known since i was fifteen.some of you have asked if my parents were jws?

no catholics,some asked why the neighbors did nothing ,no one wanted to get their nose dirty i guess and two neighbors were cops.before i start more of my life ,please when i wright a thread about what ever ...please dont tell me i need to talk to someone or i am feeling this way because of my child hood.if any thing it has made me a strong person in many ways.i as many in simular situations are good at blocking things out and becoming callus to situations.i promised not do drag this on and here i go .all right i will shut up and get on with it.growing up i learned there are, mean drunks, nice drunks, quiet drunks,etc.lucky me mom was a mean drunk.when she did get out of her bed , for her alcohlic delivery,my sister and i would run upstairs to our room and push our beds against the door .i can't say some of the things she had done to me ,it is to hard.notice i said things done to me , i always felt my mother hated me , she always treated me cruel,punishing me for no reason or just letting me know i was worthless.finally during one of her trips out of her room to get the wonder juice delivery, she stopped to tell me how i ruined her life by becoming pregnant with me,i guess the story goes my mother was going to leave my father and one night he raped her and became pregnant with me .oh ya it was my idea to just jump in her womb.any way thats just some .more tid bits of home.living with my syco sister didnt last to long ,my other sister now almost eighteen was married and had a baby, me i was fifteen and pregnant waiting for my sixteenth b-day( pagan) to get married.well got married things were rough but alright till a cult member started to talk to my husband at work, well he told me we got sucked in , after a year or two i felt something was wrong with this so i left it but my husband was trapped.to me i have a much stronger mentality were as my husband who says he had a good childhood is very weak and gullible.next had four great kids (my life) and a husband whose life is work, the hall, and himself.now i am fortyfive all kids grown and gone but one ,he's ninteen.i am always in contact with my next oldest sister,but not with my oldest.

my brother i see a few times a year , and mother, she was constantly put in nut houses and would get out and go soeone would put her back in .

dottie

((((((((((kls))))))))))))

Vent away baby!!!!!!!! That's what we're here for!!!

Much Hugs and Love

Dottie

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sharring my secrets

by kls in

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you all are so special, i just finished reading the thread i posted the other day and again you all made me cry(probably girl thing) not in a bad way but in a happy way,sometimes i think i found you guys just in time.so because of your caring i would like to share my life story,no i won,t drag it on.i was raised in a home with two sisters and a brother,i was the youngest ,i am three years younger then one sister ,ten years between my other sister and twelve years younger then my brother.father was a beater,belts,boards but his favorite was his fists,i went to school with plenty of black eyes and lying were they came from.my older sister and brother were married and out of the house and very seldom visited.as kids my brother and sister were beat also so there was alot of tenson when they did visit.so with my one sister and me we take the beatings for them and hide in our rooms hoping we didn,t do any thing to irritate our parents.my mother , i swear she would blow things out of perportion just to see us get beat , i think because she was beat so offen by my dad , i would hear them in my room at night or in the day , the shit would start to fly and we just hid.my parents were both drinkers but usually it was moderate until i was about ten years old and my sister was twelve, the drinking became out of control especially for my mom,fights got more intense till it was like living in a war zone.it got to the point that my mother never left her bedroom and was drunk twentyfour hrs.

a day, not even coming out to eat.my dad ,sister and me would do the shopping and cleaning and cooking.life was ,well for my sister and me was becoming normal .then one day coming home from school ,i see the police, my older sister and brother are there..odd, they are all crying and inform me dad killed himself and they just took his body.

well , we have funeral moms drunk at , and all of a sudden everyone is gone to their own lives while my sister and me are stealing food to live.

dottie

(((((((((((((((kls)))))))))))))))

I now how hard it must have been for you to share your story and you are very brave for doing so. I am very proud of you for sharing with us your past life...I know how hard it is to divulge such personal thought and moments.

many hugs from me to you...

Dottie

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Would you take your shoes off?

by Golden Girl in

if you went to someones house as a guest and they asked you to take your shoes off..would you?..would you be offended?....

does anyone know if this is proper etiquette?.

didn't know where else to post this........ my daughter was invited to a neighbors house and they requested people remove their shoes!...she never had anyone ask her that before.

dottie

When visiting someone, I always take my shoes off. If the person I'm visiting says "No, it's all right leave your shoes on..." then I do. I expect the same of my guests as well, but I have never had someone just leave their shoes on and walk around my house. (probably because I wouldn't let them get that far )

I think it's just a common courtesy that I was raised with, and I expect most of the people I know in my life are the same...

Dottie

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Miss me?

by Vivamus in

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didn't anyone miss me?

i've missed you guys.

i seem to be unable to post when i'm at home.

dottie

((((((((((viv)))))))))))

I've missed you! Hope all is well with you...things with me are pretty much the same...school, school, school, study, study, study...LOL

Take Good Care of yourself Viv...if ur email works drop me a line...I seem to have lost yours tho

Dottie

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Has The "TRUTH" Made You Cry?

by minimus in

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because jehovah's witnesses are considered the "happiest people on earth", you would think that jehovah's witnesses would be, as a group, happy.

very few witnesses that i know are genuinely happy.

most are either depressed or feeling that they are inadequate.

dottie

It has made me cry more times than I'd care to recall

Dottie

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To MOUTHY: On-line Grandmother Appreciation Weekend

by RAYZORBLADE in

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ok...i think it's long overdue, don't you agree?

our beloved on-line grandmother (adopted by some of us) deserves a little on-line appreciation.

mouthy: (grace) this thread will be one dedicated to you.

dottie

(((((((((((((mouthy)))))))))))))

You were one of the first people to welcome me into chat and I love ya for it You always seem to make sure that everyone feels welcomed and loved.

Thanks for being my adoptive gran too!!!!!!

Dottie

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Evolution or Creation??

by dottie in

well i know i may be opening a can of worms here.... but after what we were taught in the wts about creation...and now that you may know more about evolution... which do you think you'd choose to believe more??.

myself...i am leaning towards evolution...but then i read things that make me think otherwise.

so i do find it confusing sometimes .

dottie

Wow...thanks everyone for your replies...I though this thread died a long time ago...

I have been doing much reading...trying to keep myself aprised of both sides of the coin. I still have no formed opinion as to which is for me...I find both equally interesting.

Thanks again for your time

Dottie

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What Is A Real Friend To You?

by minimus in

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just thinking.... do you consider yourself a "good" friend.

we used to say that we had the best friends anyone could ever have.

our friends would die for us.

dottie

Hmm...Interesting...

I actually pride myself on being a very good friend. I have a vault that could NEVER be opened (as in many secrets! you with the dirty minds!! ) I put my friends first and foremost above all, because without true friends my world would be intolerable. I would put my life on the line for all my friends...and my true friends I know would do the same for me in a heartbeat.

To all my friends...and you know who you are...Thanks for being my friend *tears*

OK...enough of the mushy crap...let's go get a beer!!!!!! Woohoo!!!!!

Dottie

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