I read your previous post on what happened and what you wanted to do. You had some pretty good advice.
Bottom line- you need to decide what to do. I think that I could not get reinstated if I were DF'ed, knowing
it is not the truth, but maybe you can.
I am married to a faithful JW, in my fade, hoping not to get DF'ed. They can never DA you if you don't vote,
go to church, celebrate holidays, join the military. If you do celebrate at work or with non-JW family or vote,
you have to keep it a secret. Other than that, you play the game.
For you that might be this-You get reinstated and then never question
doctrine during your fade. You cut back on meetings and service on your terms, but your reason is always
depression, feelings of lack-of-love, or lots of work. In other words, you become spiritually weak, but not a
person who insists that something is wrong with the organization.
I did not choose this path, but if I started over again, advice from this board might have caused me to take
the depression route. I chose to "doubt" the Governing Body and their doctrine, so now I have to avoid
argument over doctrine. Garybuss taught me this one, just say "Now, I agree with the WT." Don't say which
WT and avoid letting their counsel get anywhere. There is no room for DF in that.