Religion makes me nauseous. I stay busy and don't think about it. I would classify myself as agnostic.
FreeGirl2006
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What are you now ?
by moomanchu incurious as to what exwitnesses have become or believe.
i haven't joined any religous group and do not attend any services.
(have visited a church's service)
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Who is DF/DA or Fader???
by mama1119 ini was just wondering, how many dfed to we have on here compared to da or faders??
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FreeGirl2006
Df'd for refusing to meet the Trinity because I was suicidal...recovering from two attempts at suicide. Have not looked back...left JW hubby who is & has cheated on me--the Borg loves him! No one knows where I live and I live in a gated community. No regrets for leaving the loveless borginization.
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What planted the seed of doubt that lead you to leave or think of leaving?
by NanaR ini've been thinking of this a lot lately.
the following experience ties my first doubt in with my present life.
as a backdrop to this, you should know that i was a 5th generation "raised in the truth" jw through my mother (her great-grandfather got "the truth" from pastor russell).
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FreeGirl2006
Most definitely the lack of love. How is df'ing a loving thing? How does that help people who are down & out? How can mere men judge heart conditions & determine true repentance? I saw more hate in the organization than love.
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What Difference Is There Between Your Life As A Witness----And Now??
by minimus inare things sooooo different now??
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FreeGirl2006
I am much happier, have a feeling of peace that has long been absent. I don't feel oppressed and I am not surrounded by rude, judgemental people who hate.
I also no longer have panic attacks since going to the KH is what brought them on.
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Oh CRap!
by TheKings inan elder is at my house right now studying with my dad in the next room.
he can probably hear me typing now .
i got two crank calls in a row (the phone is right by the computer on the desk) ...then someone called a third time and i just picked up the phone and slammed it loudly.
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FreeGirl2006
Grab your sister & run! At least if they think you are an evil phone slammer they will leave you alone! You are muy funny btw!
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The Two Faces of a JW
by Nosferatu init always amazed me how jws can have almost two different personalities.
it's not quite like having a double life, but it's the hypocricy of jws themselves.. i remember going to those meetings and seeing everyone with their plastic smiles, as if they were the greatest people in the world.
but you lift the curtain of their home lives, and their true personalities come out.. my mother was an entirely different person at the meetings.
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FreeGirl2006
I had a roomie who was full-time pioneer (I was just the reg publisher who worked full time {gasp}!) One night I went to bed early and I woke up to voices in the living room...male voices. I got dressed and go out to see what is going on and mz spiritual has 6 worldly guys parked in our living room and they are drinking. Now I am sure it was all perfectly innocent--perhaps a bible study ? Then there were all the phone calls from men who met her at the restaurant she worked. My particular favorite would be the sexy lingerie she ordered from a porn shop to keep her "cool" in the heat of summer while she went out in service. Did I mention she did drugs or that one weekend while we were away she let her brother have a party at our house without my knowledge? I had fun cleaning up all the liquor bottles, cigarette butts, and listening to the neighbors describe calling the police.
The elders reaction? They said I needed to talk to her and really, without proof, they could do nothing. She in turn went to them and told them I was doing those things--guess who got counseled? Guess who they believed?
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tonight
by FreeGirl2006 intonight i went to see my favorite comedian and my dub brother & sister-in-law were there from out of state.
i just ignored them, they saw me and got this sad look on their face.
i thought, you made the choice, i didn't.
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FreeGirl2006
Bikerchic, it was Brian Regan. He makes me laugh til I cry.
Zeroday--I am sure the bright light keeps "getting brighter" on this subject.
lisavegas420--sure, go for the gold on that one!
thanks for the love, hugs & advice. It is nice to have a place to go to be understood. I don't think I could stress that enough.
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tonight
by FreeGirl2006 intonight i went to see my favorite comedian and my dub brother & sister-in-law were there from out of state.
i just ignored them, they saw me and got this sad look on their face.
i thought, you made the choice, i didn't.
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FreeGirl2006
Tonight I went to see my favorite comedian and my dub brother & sister-in-law were there from out of state. I just ignored them, they saw me and got this sad look on their face. I thought, you made the choice, I didn't. I just could not bring myself to make a scene. It still makes me sad. Any thoughts on getting to the point where it does not hurt & I truly don't care?
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Ambien...Can anyone help?????
by mama1119 ini have a close family member who has been taking ambien for quite some time now, and is trying to get off of it.
this person is having a tough time, not to mention they cannot sleep at all.
does anyone have any tips on how to get and stay off, and what to do for sleep in the meantime???
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FreeGirl2006
I was on Ambien for close to two years...I had memory loss, but I got sleep. I finally weaned off and switched to Lunesta for a brief period. When I finally got df'd I was able to get sleep without any help at all. I find Ambien very scary, Lunesta was not as powerful, but it did help me without any side effects whatsoever.
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What's Your FAVORITE Type of Music???
by minimus ini love r&b, soul, disco, and some classic rock.
one of my favorire songs is by al green, "let's stay together"......what do you like??
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FreeGirl2006
I love music so I listen to all genres, but my fav is latin music. I do a mean tango & rumba. Shall we dance?