Do you ever get past the anger stage? I think I'm past it, then it comes roaring back. I honestly feel like they killed me.
I know. Everytime I find myself in one of those deja vu moments where I'm doing the same thing I've done in the past and getting the same rotten results, I get frustrated. It seems that I don't learn some lessons. I also think I have self-esteem issues that play into this. It's why I'm really struggling to get employment beyond minimum wage when I have so many skills. From the success I've enjoyed outside of the organization before, I know that my backwards thinking is related to the mind control. I do have hope though. And I'm not going to quit fighting until I have this thing licked. I wish you the same.