Hey buddy, don't worry, I used to be like you too. I said almost all of this same stuff to my fleshly brother so that he could find the truth and share in the wonderful things I had learned from the Watchtower. I told him not to waste his time because I was already where he could possibly want to be. I let him know that I had it all.
That was in 1998. He studied with the witnesses for awhile but had to quit because they told him that he either had to believe everything they told or he was a god-dishonoring apostate. He stopped studying in 1999, but I continued on strong, hoping one day that he's see the light as I had. I went out in service a lot. I loved knowing that I was passing on life-giving information to my neighbors.
The only problem with this whole scenario is that while I really believed I was bringing a life-saving message of love and peace from a loving god, in reality I was simply telling all those around me who weren't in my religion that I was better than them and would continue to be better than them until they changed everything they believed to what I believe. My attitude was obviously the very antithesis of humility and yet the bible says that the meek will inherit the earth. Was I being meek? Was I being loving? I wanted to be meek and I wanted to show love for my neighbors, but by presuming that I knew God's mind I was placing myself above my fellow man and thus asking to be humiliated.
Let me ask you a question. Who is stronger, Satan or God? I'm guessing you'd answer God. If this is so, then why are the apostates not afraid to talk to witnesses but witnesses are afraid to talk to us so-called apostates? Whose god is stronger? Shouldn't God be able to protect you no matter where you go, especially if you come here to help us see the errors of our ways? Since you serve a more powerful god, you should have no problem sticking around here, looking at our errors, and helping us to see the light.