Hi Brizzy. I apologize that I haven't read your story, I just got an overview from it on this thread. What you have gone through is horrible, but you sound strong.
It is my observation that so many of us who leave go through stages. It isn't my place to judge, or even to imply anything. If you want to wear jewlery like this, I say, go girl!
I hope that the angry part is a stage, however long it lasts, because there is a lot to life that you can experience after you deal with the issues of being raised as a JW and of course, the molestation.
I get why you want to wear the jewlery.
You sound pretty cool. I wish you the best.