Posts by J-ex-W

I think what it is, is that you have a keen sense of irony--and many ironic situations do contain some [albeit, dark] humor. Next time someone gives you a judgmental reaction for employing ironic humor among your other coping tools--ask them if they've ever laughed at a dark comedy...and point out, "Where do you think the plot lines for those things come from? Everyday stuff we deal with!!"

Humor is an effective coping tool. Use it. Acknowledge the guilt--but acknowledge guilt as an emotion that comes in tandem with the humor, in this situation...not as something that 'needs' to override it.

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Ever notice?

by Sparkplug in

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how fast a crisis brings everything into perfectly clear focus?.

i often wonder where do the strong go when they need to cry?

well truly...today...i can see the separation of people in my life.

J-ex-W

Truly that is not what has me stressed. It is things such as "if she falls, how do I get her up if my brother is gone. she is not small...?" and How many times will my very ridgid and unforgiving job let me address this before they decide to get rid of me. Yes I know FMLA and I have that. unpaid...(Even worse) but still...if they want you gone, there is always a way.
Or will she hurt herself in the few minutes it takes to drive the baby to school and back.
Those things worry me.

It's like caring for a toddler all over again--only one that's too big for you to pick up and contain in the ways necessary. How long will you be dealing with this before she is put into supervised care? I didn't get to read all the posts the other night.

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Ever notice?

by Sparkplug in

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how fast a crisis brings everything into perfectly clear focus?.

i often wonder where do the strong go when they need to cry?

well truly...today...i can see the separation of people in my life.

J-ex-W

I never had to see it or deal with it personally, but when I was about 14 or so, my grandma had developed Alhzheimer's and stories were cropping up all the time. For those of us hearing it--but not living it--it was both humorous and sad, and then guilt-inducing for even finding humor there at all. But then again, Mildred would have found humor in it, too, were she cognizant.

She was an at-home mom all her years, and toward the end, when she was no longer the cook and others were bringing food for her and grandpa, she would still hunt down any potatoes in the house to put on the stove to boil. The others were doing their utmost to prevent her--fire/ stove and all--so she would take to filling pots with water and peeled potatoes and hiding them in the cupboard to boil later, after company was gone. These pots would be found by the company, several of them on the same day. Over and over again.

It's okay to laugh, even crazy, half-teary maniacal laughter, at this insane situation you now find yourself in. It's okay to fantasize, too, about anything that could put an abrupt halt to the inanities you are enduring. My heart goes out to you.

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Ever notice?

by Sparkplug in

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how fast a crisis brings everything into perfectly clear focus?.

i often wonder where do the strong go when they need to cry?

well truly...today...i can see the separation of people in my life.

J-ex-W

((((((((((((((((((( sparkplug ))))))))))))))))))))

It is strange. I wonder did I become more in focus to anybody? Does it matter? Really tho, I think if anyone was looking I never have tried to distort the picture. Good or bad.

I believe that. You are very emotionally honest and astute. I know what you mean about being down/ needing help and being surprised--shocked--and dismayed at who came out of the woodwork to lend appropriate support and who just didn't know HOW to hold onto the ball (but instead dropped it with a flat, sickening thud).

Forgive those who don't know how...for sometimes we are that one to someone else, whether we may have been even vaguely aware of it or not. You're right--you do have MANY supportive voices here to supply your needs. Soak it up, Hon! Soak it up.

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What do you collect?

by winnie in

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sorry, i'm sooo bored at the moment...so i thought it was a good idea to post something that would take up 5 minutes!.

i have a collection of books.

robin cook, patricia cornwell, john grisham, dean koontz, richard laymon and stephen king are among my favourites.

J-ex-W

I used to collect stuffed animals, up through my teen years. I had 150 in all by the time I was ready to give them up.

For books, I recommed Jane Austen's "Pride and Prejudice" and "Emma." These were my favorites long before they were popularized on film.

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Can You Identify Your EmotiCons accurately?

by J-ex-W in

lol .

i was glancing through the active topics and read terry's thread this way.

had to do a double take--especially since i have had trouble identifying my emoticons accurately!

J-ex-W

Moomanchu-------- How about this one:

I (_!_) I (a** pressed to the glass)

I made that up!!

I don't get that.

BurnTheShips----- Are you fully familiar with your emoticons, or have you been stunted in your emoticonal growth?

How can you possibly have trouble with emotions? You're an "NF"!!!

becca1--------- Back atcha, babe!! Sometimes there's so much emotiConality on this board, it's NF-in' crazy!!

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uuu2b1 gave me the courage

by skeptic1914 in

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alright, i admit it.

i have been this close to posting a number of times.

i saw uuus2b1 post and the welcome he received and figured i'd post too.

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Welcome skeptic1914!! Glad to see ya here.