By now I don't know what to think ...
I don't know if you are really 17, I don't know if you really need help ... or if you are playing around (I don't know)
but if you look for help you have to be aware that anybody can tell you anything (you still rely on yourself finally)
- you feel Christian check the bible (in being objective - it's an old book it talks about old cultures)
- you feel human check your heart (how do you feel about what happen, was it love, was it all about sex)
- in both cases (did you hurt anybody? Did you make any promesses just to get what you want or stuff like that? ... if the answer is no ... well get the point)