Those pictures always made me afraid but sad for people the dubs say will die. I could never understand why children and babies would have to die. As I got older I never longed for paradise. I'm a realist I guess so I never could wrap my mind around the idea of paradise.
As far as I know this is the only life we get so we better make the best of it. The thought of being dead is the only thing that can give me anxiety and panic attacks. The thought of no longer living terrifies me at times. But I guess not enough to get me to believe in paradise or heaven.