I can kind of relate. As you know, I was a believer even after I was df'd. But because of the experiences I had about the cover ups of child molestation and the indirect condoning of domestic violence within the congregations, I bounced between thinking there must be something wrong with me and something must be wrong with the organization.
Thankfully, Barbara Anderson and Bill Bowen, both to whom I will be eternally grateful, appeared on Dateline, and the truth about "the truth" eventually hit me.