Posts by neverendingjourney

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Demon stories

by HiddenPimo in

so as a child i was scared to death of the demons.

in fact you may remember the wt and awake loved to put stories of these attacks in the articles.

as a youth i loved to read books.

neverendingjourney

https://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/1987642?q=demon+attacks&p=sen

Amazing! I never thought I'd see this again.

P.S. I was 8 when this article was published.

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Demon stories

by HiddenPimo in

so as a child i was scared to death of the demons.

in fact you may remember the wt and awake loved to put stories of these attacks in the articles.

as a youth i loved to read books.

There was an Awake article in the early 80s detailing a woman's supposed lifelong struggle with demons. I remember it vividly because I was a young child at the time. It spoke of the demon attacking her at night and inflating her stomach to the point where she appeared to be pregnant. The demons supposedly killed several members of her family. The attacks supposedly stopped once she became a Witness and learned to use Jehovah's name.

I've lost access to WT publications, so I haven't been able to locate it again. It was the stuff of nightmares.

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30 years after leaving utterly unrecognisable

by Number 6 in

this is the first time i have posted on here in many years..... i seldom visit now although this forum was instrumental to me in gaining my sanity in the early 2000's and recovering from the watchtower religion.. by chance tonight i was on youtube and caught a jw.org video which out of curiosity prompted me to look at the official website and amongst other things i looked up the music section.. why that i hear you ask?

music is my passion and nothing reminds me more or evokes more memories than the kingdom songs i grew up listening to.. i am 49 years old and my mother was baptised in 1974. i grew up in the era of pink songbooks and green bibles.

of the theology of fred franz and types and anti-types.

neverendingjourney

Hmph. Some "community"

I agree, but for folks who are isolated and emotionally vulnerable, being a part of any community can be appealing. And the JWs are good about love bombing and presenting a certain image to potential converts.

BTW, I like your username. It makes me think of Falcor and Atreyu playing "Don't Stop Believing" on endless repeat as they fly through the Nothing.

I came up with it years ago when I was waking up. I had bought into the religion as a teenager and woke up in my mid 20s. It dawned on me that then that there were no easy answers and that life was a continuous journey. Opinions and outlooks would change depending on new information and experiences. There weren't easy answers.

It was difficult for me because I liked the certainty and structure that "the truth" provided. Knowing that there were no easy answers to life's tough questions was a huge let down.

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30 years after leaving utterly unrecognisable

by Number 6 in

this is the first time i have posted on here in many years..... i seldom visit now although this forum was instrumental to me in gaining my sanity in the early 2000's and recovering from the watchtower religion.. by chance tonight i was on youtube and caught a jw.org video which out of curiosity prompted me to look at the official website and amongst other things i looked up the music section.. why that i hear you ask?

music is my passion and nothing reminds me more or evokes more memories than the kingdom songs i grew up listening to.. i am 49 years old and my mother was baptised in 1974. i grew up in the era of pink songbooks and green bibles.

of the theology of fred franz and types and anti-types.

neverendingjourney

I'm 10 years younger than you and have been out since the mid-00s. The sidelining of doctrine was inevitable.

One of the advantages we had was the general public's ignorance. We could soak up the fake wisdom and knowledge of the WT and feel like intellectual giants because the public was ill-prepared to provide a solid counterargument.

Looking back, I remember how big an impact on my faith it was to encounter the rare individual who'd studied Witness teachings and could push back. Being unable to easily dispatch them with a proof text was humiliating. Sure, I pushed it all back into the part of my brain where I shoved things I didn't want to voluntarily access again, but the impact was real.

Fast forward 20 years and more information than even those rare people possessed is available to anyone willing to spend 10 minutes reading the JW wikipedia page. Return visits would get derailed by having to respond to info the householder found online.

So instead of updating the doctrine, which is too hard to do, especially for a group run by a committee that requires a supermajority to act, you push doctrine to the sideline and make it all about the community.

The religion's appeal is much more limited that way. They'll manage to recruit emotionally vulnerable people who don't care about doctrinal consistency, but the real push is in retaining captive born-ins. But the walls are starting to crack there, too.

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"Its not about the numbers...Its about Love"

by Solzhenitsyn in

in the org did anyone ever tell you that its not about the numbers...yet the reality was that it was all about the numbers?.

i ran into a pimi who asked why my family and i were awol.

i told him that it was private and personal and i wasn't at liberty to discuss it.

neverendingjourney

We become very good at lying to ourselves as JWs. For me, it started with telling people I preached to that I was just there to share a message from the Bible and wasn't there to convert them. I could justify that by telling myself it was in the householders' best interest.

This kind of thinking could devolve into the absurd. For example, there was a guy in my congregation who once told a householder that JWs did in fact believe in the trinity. I was in shock. After the conversation ended, I asked him why he would say such a thing and he responded that a circuit overseer had once told him it was okay to answer this way during early visits because Jehovah didn't want us to scare away anyone who was otherwise rightly disposed to the truth.

After leaving the JWs, I began to see it as a spectrum ranging from clever word placement intended to convey a message contrary to the one we actually held (Do JWs believe only they will survive Armageddon? We don't say that. Only Jehovah can judge), to lying when the other party doesn't deserve the truth (was once called theocratic warfare in the publications and justified by citing Rahab as an example), to outright lying when it was viewed to be in the religion's best interest (such as the guy telling the householder we believed in the trinity).

I was comfortable with word games, but never truly became comfortable with theocratic warfare or outright convenient lies. The issue, of course, is that once you become comfortable lying to others, it becomes easier to lie to yourself.

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2 Gallons of Coffee

by Solzhenitsyn in

that is how much coffee me and another elder went through as we camped out all night until 7 a.m. outside the home where suspected jw fornicators we're staying.

little did i know what a powerful contrast that would prove to be when as an elder i was faced with another case involving the allegation of severe child sexual abuse.

we disfellowshipped the couple based completely on circumstantial evidence of sexual wrongdoing because they simply "stayed the entire night".

neverendingjourney

The world is littered with JW's and former JW's whose lives and family lineage was ruined or forever altered at the hands of "unlettered and ordinary" Janitors, Carpenters and Window Washers masquerading as Bible Theologians and playing detective because they given the authority to deal with complex matters that even trained professionals wouldn't dare to handle on their own.

There was a teenager in my congregation who in hindsight was exhibiting signs of schizophrenia. Two elders were dispatched to investigate. They determined he was under the influence of spiritism because he would hear voices telling him to kill his mother.

These two elders, one a construction worker and the other a low-level municipal employee who was illiterate until he became a JW, prayed with the family and helped them conduct a spring cleaning where they threw away any items purchased second hand at garage sales and the like.

I lost touch with that family a few years afterward, so I don't know what ever became of that kid. Needless to say, it could have very easily resulted in a tragic ending. No professionals were ever engaged to my knowledge.

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my story...

by Nikki collins in

many of you have asked about my story, so here it is.

it's a bit long lol.

however i still loved jeremy but because he wasn’t a witness i knew i could never be with him and have my family.

neverendingjourney

Congrats on being free from the control.

Making the transition as an adult is going to be painful. I went through it 13 years ago, but to paraphrase the Shawshank Redemption, we crawl through 500 yards of shit and come out clean on the other end.

Don't give up hope!

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Window Washers

by Nikki collins in

i know @hiddenpimo is going to laugh at me for this because we had several in our old congregation, but what is with all the window washing businesses owned/managed by jws???

they are everywhere!

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neverendingjourney

It's pretty straightforward. There are lots of JW window washers because WT leadership encouraged people to become window washers. It was a "theocratic career" that would buy you instant credibility. You want a part at the circuit assembly? Become a window washer and get paraded in front of the audience as an exemplary Christian.

When I graduated high school in the mid 90s, the WT was encouraging recent graduates to go to vocational/technical school in lieu of college. I followed their advice and enrolled in a 9 month welding program. Nine months and twenty thousand dollars later I had a worthless piece of paper and nobody would hire me. It took me 15 years to pay off those loans. But, hey, at least I followed Mother's direction!

Whether knowingly or not, the WT was steering their members into one of the most fraudulent and corrupt industries in America: for-profit vocational schools.

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Do any of you born into the cult feel like your mental growth was stunted?

by rockemsockem in

being born in to me was devastating.

when you are a child born in and raised with the they vs us and they are evil and worldly and going to die.

not allowed to form relationships with anyone not one of you.

neverendingjourney

James Hetfield of Metallica and Ellen Degeneres were raised Christian Scientist. Beck was and is a Scientologist.

There are a lot of successful people who've overcome similarly screwed up childhoods. One of the biggest benefits I derive from telling people about my JW upbringing is learning that I'm not on an island. Lots of people have had to overcome similar challenges.

It doesn't make our upbringing okay, but it does put things in perspective.

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Do any of you born into the cult feel like your mental growth was stunted?

by rockemsockem in

being born in to me was devastating.

when you are a child born in and raised with the they vs us and they are evil and worldly and going to die.

not allowed to form relationships with anyone not one of you.

neverendingjourney

In some ways, being a JW accelerated my development and in other ways is stunted it.

I left the JWs in my mid 20s. I had been in leadership roles since I was a 17 year old regular pioneer. My reading, writing and public speaking skills were well above average. I was much better prepared for college and the working world than the average person my age.

However, I was incredibly underdeveloped from the perspective of relationships and dating. We were never allowed to date normally and the principles that formed the foundation of a JW relationship were often completely at odds with those in the real world. Whereas being a rule-following JW was often enough to attract a female JW, in the real world you had to develop yourself more fully as a human being.

Women expected an interesting personality, romance, and excitement. Normal people spent their teenage years fumbling through romantic relationships honing their dating skills, and I was expected to learn this as a grown man when the stakes were higher and the tolerance for mistakes much lower. It was bad, but I worked through it.