i'm so drained emotionally from it but i did it.
i learned a few days ago through her ex worldly boyfriend that she had told him she tries to email me but i don't answer, she called me and i hung up (all things she has done tome in the past 9 months that i have been trying to get in touch with her).
she told him i had gone crazy and moved to italy and no one knew where i was and i was not talking to my jw mom anymore ( i moved to italy for almost 3 years to work, study and learn italian and my mom is not a jw!!!!!!
It's hard to see people we care about "still drinking the kool-aid". I'm the kinda of person that says what is on my mind and let the chips fall where they may!
Some of us just can't sit by and play the game. I agree with RD, don't fret over this. What do you have to loose that you already havn't? And if you are gonna loose it anyway, who give a Sh*&?
nj
it,s because god is waiting for us all to go back, then the end will come.. ok, who will go back first?
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Not me, oh no, I'll never go back!!!!!
nj
i went to a old train station museum today and looked around at the antiques and old tools of days gone by.
as i walked around to the platform that once held passengers departing to several cities down the track, i came upon a old woman who was just sitting there looking sad and knitting to pass the time.
i set down and spoke to her to see if everything was okay.. "are you okay mam, you seem like something is wrong?
Yes, I have a mother and father, two brothers and their wives. 3 cousins, a uncle that is about to die and his wife that I never liked anyway! A very good friend that i wish would stop waiting!
Thanks for sharing!
nj
definition from the american heritage dictionary:.
'one who has abandoned ones religious faith, a political party, ones principles or a cause'.
thousands of people leave the watchtower org every year, some become atheist, some agnostic, some choose to follow another religion and some develop their own beliefs, yet according to this dictionary definition all are apostate.
*waving* Apostate here!!!
nj
just had a conversation with my mom about 13 million spent on defending and losing court cases by the society.. i argued that they can't argue against the catholics when they themselves are guilty of the same.. she replied she didn't care.
(after sending them $100,000.00 dollars) she stated that the catholic church had spent billions defending them selves and if the jw's had only spent millions .
that the society had spent billions sending a message, and if i didn't like their message then leave her alone and the rest of the group.. i am burning with rage......i was accused of trying to destroy her beliefs, and if i was not in agreement to reject the entire religion........which of course i have already done many moons ago.. r..
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She may never get it, you may have to resign yourself to the fact that she won't. Try not to make yourself crazy over it.
nj
my mother-in-law had surgery recently and when ever she does go through medical issues, it brings up something i wonder about.
you see, i think the man or husband, in the relationship needs to be strong at those moments.
to be the person who people can look to for updated information, perhaps to be the pillar of strength to keep everyone calm in a rough situation and so on.
In a marraige I think that each partner will eventually play the weak part as well as the strong part. I don't think that strength is totally the man's responsibility. Why does the woman always have to be the one to be the weak, crying can't handle anything person?
I don't like stereotyping. If my kids got hurt the hubby was useless. Not that he is a wimp he just can't stand seeing people he loves hurt. He's the same with me if I'm in pain or sick, let's not even discuss childbirth! His mom is elderly and going through a lot, he depends on me to be strong for him.
Your father-in-law sounds like he a drama king! It does sound like he's a little overdramatic!
I guess I just think that the man does not always have to be the ROCK!
nj
i've got sore nerves in my gums.
i've had a trapped nerve in my neck/shoulder for a few weeks and it's stiff as well.
i think i must have subconciously adjusted my gait and now the nerves in that side of my mouth hurt.
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Hope you feel better soone!
nj
any old timers that remember the green book remembe song #1?
i think the title was "hail him" or something similar.
that song was good old southern church rock and roller!!'.
AAHHHH!!!! Those damn songs will be in my head all night!!!
Thanks a million
nj
for saturday morning bookstudy!!!!
thanks for checking on me though.
every meeting now i ask her "so what did you learn at the meeting" and i can tell she is getting tired of answering.
OOMPA!!! You had me scared and worried, thinking you were all upset because she had left you!!!!
You need a spank'n
nj
i posted my pic.
(well part of it at least (am a bit shy still...) because i am not scared to be found out anymore.
mind you i've been df'ed for nearly a year now but still had hope 'friends' would remember we were like family and realize they couldn't possibly live the rest of their lives without talking to me again....ha!
Hey 4dc,
Welcome to JWD - Since being on JWD I now realize just how afraid most are of leaving or being kicked out of JW land and being found out! I never had this fear, even though I was raised a JW I never considered myself a JW and surely never acted like one should have!
Will be waiting to hear your story when you are ready!
nj
