Dear Missana
It does'nt matter, you don't take any discussion about the blood matter away. Not many are responding anyway as you can see. :)
I think it's very important, that you have someone to write to about this. Have you thougth about contacting Silent lamb? I promise you, Bill Bowen is a very nice man. Or try to go to their home page, and write in their guestbook. Many people there have tried the same as you. Maluenda ex. have been abused herself, and she is so carring and a loving woman. That you feel that you are surrounded with love, while you are at the site.
Yes I know it's tuff for you right now. And I know about nightmares, I have been told before. And I understand that you are angry, and thats good. Its so okay to be angry. Try and feel the anger, yell at your molester, write down all about what you are thinking, it help. Tell him, out in the blue air, that you just dont want him to do such things to you. I know it sounds crazy, but it will help.
But you need to talk to somebody, it also will help a lot.
My girlfriends does have a life, but sometimes it all comes back to them and they go down. But they have got a lot of psycological help. (Hope its spelled right). They are fighting and all the advises I just wrote, is the experiences they have told me, through time.
Missana write to me, as often as you like, I am here for you. And think deeply about what I wrote, talk to Silent lamb. They have experience since 1992. Many ex-witnesses have phoned and talked to Bill Bowen and he have helped them a lot.
I hope so much that you recover totally. I will pray for you.
Sincerely Manjana