you seem like a very caring and warm person. Thank you for caring so much. What i said was actually just trying to lighten the mood but is also true there are things in my past i can't seem to get over. different kinds of abuse and all done in the name of Jehovah. Which i do not hold against jehovah of course but i do hold it against the elders and the abusers. Something should have been done and never was. That was one of the main reasons i left before i started doing research and finding out that a lot of what they teach is a lie. I did go to therapy for a while when i was really young and started to rebel... lol but then after my parents decided that i was better because i was now answering at the watchtower again i never really got closure. but i dealing with it the best i can.
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Does parents recover?
by Manjana ini am sitting here watching a video from youtube.
about children who have died, because their parent refused to give them blood.
it's awfull.. but what i am thinking about, does anybody know what become of any of those parents?
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by Missanna ini am getting so tired of people telling me what is wrong with me and that i have left jehovah!!!
i'm so angry.
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Missanna
I've tried explaining the whole "I still pray and study the Bible" but they (especially my parents) have told me "That's not Enough for Jehovah!" where do they or anyone get off saying they know what God wants and expects of me? That's between me and Jehovah. I may be at a point right now that i am confused about things and don't really know what i beleive but i'm confident i am going to come out of it with a clear head. And i did right the guy back i went off on him... i couldn't help it. i was pissed. he hasn't written back so i might have scared him off.
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by Missanna ini am getting so tired of people telling me what is wrong with me and that i have left jehovah!!!
i'm so angry.
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Missanna
awww you're too sweet!
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by Missanna ini am getting so tired of people telling me what is wrong with me and that i have left jehovah!!!
i'm so angry.
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Arthur, lol your right if i only would have given him a chance we could be having study sessions over the phone of the watchtower and eventually if i'm good he would marry me and make all my dreams come true of a fairy tale stay at home mommy to 5 bratty kids that i have to keep quiet at meetings. lol No thank you.
Double Edge, I know i need to calm down. i just hate when people say that to me. my family stills says it when i talk to them once ever 6 months and i just want people to understand.
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Is a rapid graceful exit possible?
by besty inwe will find out soon.
as a brief update my wife sweet pea and i have 'announced' to a few friends and close family - less than 10 altogether - that we are no longer going to meetings.
some friends have probed for details, others don't want to know.
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Missanna
I agree with scully, i haven't been out of the org. that long but i tried explaining just one point to my family about why i was leaving and it blew up in my face. Elders called so on and so on. now i am hearing all these rumors about me. I can laugh at them now. But i moved away to a place where no one knew me and i could live my life freely. Eventually after people started calling me and trying to "encourage" me i stopped taking phone calls and they eventually stopped calling. i'm finally free.
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Does parents recover?
by Manjana ini am sitting here watching a video from youtube.
about children who have died, because their parent refused to give them blood.
it's awfull.. but what i am thinking about, does anybody know what become of any of those parents?
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Missanna
In my old congregation there was a sister that had a son die and they refused blood. she has never recovered. idon't know if they would have been able to save him with blood but i know that was a tramatic horrible thing that has scar'd her. I can't imagine the pain. What about if they find out afterward that the "truth" wasn't really the truth and they followed these people blindly and actually could have saved their child. OMG that is so horrifying. Good luck in your research. if you need any help i have a very twisted past that has left me very in need of mental health.
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District Conventions
by EAGLES ini hadnt been to a d.c. in about 10 years is it really true that congragations have to sit together now????
whats up with that is it so that the elders can see who's there and who isnt.
that would blow my scam from way back when i would maybe make one half of one day and tell people i made all 4 days.
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This is bringing up memories. I remember my dad would quiz us on the way back home on what we learned. The ride home was 2 hours and that's all he would do is ask us what we learned and what we enjoyed. And don't you want to be a pioneer or missionary? And he would make us read our notes that we took to make sure we paid attention. we weren't allowed to listen to the radio or anything the whole way... man, i haven't thought about that in forever! i haven't been out of the org. for that long but it seems like so long ago.
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URRRRRRRRR
by Missanna ini am getting so tired of people telling me what is wrong with me and that i have left jehovah!!!
i'm so angry.
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I am getting so TIRED of people telling me what is wrong with me and that I have LEFT JEHOVAH!!! i'm so angry. i finally got away from my family doing that to me and now i have a stranger. I have a myspace and this man starts e-mailing me. His profile picture is Our God Lord in big letters. I had posted a blog about my family about how i'm sick of just giving and giving and giving and getting nothing in return. about how love is something earned not just spoken. He sent me an e-mail saying i hope you get through this may Jehovah be with you. So of course i was curious and asked him if he was a witness and he said yes and i told him i use to be one. and the next thing i know i'm getting this Long ass e-mail about how i've broken his heart and that i should return to Jehovah and what made me leave him and his blessed organization. I don't even know this guy. he doesn't know what i've been through. He doesn't know about my past and why i left and what i know. all he knows is i don't go to meetings. How DARE he judge me! How DARE he say i've left jehovah and don't love him anymore. I love god more now than anytime in my life. URRR I AM SO PISSED!!! .... wew thanks for letting me get that out.
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More Recent Events
by RollerDave inok, so we covered leaving, regaining my faith, now for some recent events.. .
from disabled housing, where i met my fiancee working as a pca together we weathered the death of my non-witness father, the y2k scare, 9-11, and more all the time doing our best to improve as people and serve wherever we could.. .
she got through college and got her bachelors degree and a job as a contract-worker at 3m; i struggled in physical therapy to relearn how to walk.
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Missanna
Nice!!! I just bought that book now if jw's come to my door i'll run and get it. It's so funny how close minded they are. They shun anything and everything they are told is evil by the "brothers" but never think to question the ones telling them everything is evil. It's amazing how people willing give up their own minds.
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lol i am sorry about that. By the way what is a JW MIL?