I should like to add, that even though I am free, growing up a Jehovah's Witness affected every part of my life. I can move on but part of me will always want to know what happens next in the strange world of the Watchtower Society.
Though not raised a witness, I can relate very much to your sentiments. There was a time when I was bent on 'getting past it' - which turned into not knowing if that was even possible, lol. Now I think I've settled into - it is what it is, or was - and being a witness is part of who I was and who I've grown to be - it will always be a part of me.
For me now, it's like looking back at the steps I had to take to get to the place I wanted to be - some steps I'd rather have skipped, but in hindsight it's clear that every step was absolutely neccesary and each step taught me something, even tho' I didn't realize it at the time. Life is like that, a learning experience.
Your story is a real page-turner, 'truthseeker' ! Thank you for sharing it here. I feel there is so much more left unwritten. Such as - what turns has your spiritual life made since leaving the WT? Does your wife still believe the WT doctrine? Seriously - you could very well write a book. One that I hope has a happy ending... Seems I couldn't get close to God until I was unchained from my own emotional attachment of their doctrinal hold on The Truth. Their obvious historical revisionism also turned on a few lights... But my true 'bright flash of light' was how they talked out of both sides of their "mouthpiece"(lol) to lessen fall-out from the UN scandal.
You mentioned H2O - which I only discovered in archives after the site was defunct(darn it!) - were you ever on the first Pathways forum? I remember a 'truthseeker' on there - seems so long ago... I've seen others with the username 'truthseeker' too - and always wondered... You may be the original! In any event - I'm glad to have read your story and wish you nothing but the best from here on out - and I'd love reading more if you ever endeavor writing the full edition!
Love and peace to you,
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