it's funny...i couldn't figure out why i was witch hunted in different halls, and i was straight as an arrow.
over the last year or so, ex girlfriends who i haven't talked to in over 10 years have gotten in touch with me and they all said that i had a passion for life and experience and there was 'a light' in me that threatened people...this almost exact quote came from three different exes who don't know each other.
my wife has told me the same thing.
my therapist has told me the same thing.
i've always thought outside the box, embraced relationships w/ men and women w/o thinking, i mean acting sexually on either, but the elders in different halls always assumed i was out to rape and fuck their daughters.
i was a fan of literature and experimental music and they couldn't put me in a box of what they thought was acceptable. i was a threat, either b/c they were jealous or because they were scared of how much i enjoyed life...and i'm talking even in the congregation, getting people together and having fun....they were on my ass.
looking back, it was their unhappiness, their inadequacies and their rage at never going to college, being ignorant and living their lives as short janitors while i had a different vision for my life. again, nothing 'sinful', just a drive for making the best of things.
ignorance + lack of intelligence + power = most elders