Hi Learningtofly,
It's really heart wrenching to read your story and what you have had to go through. You are an absolutely amazing person to come through this and I am in awe at your strength. Don't believe anyone for a second if anyone EVER says you are not good enough. I hope you and your sister are doing well now and my deepest condolences for your brother.
Tonight I bask in the light of your strength...
- Leon