"and at the same time each interview is fraught with a secret farewell. That was pretty intense.
Otoh I sometimes had a curious feeling when meeting old friends: as if they were speaking to someone else who was not there any longer; I had changed and they couldn't know. That made me very uneasy, and I must have sounded "strange" to them too. Often, though, it wouldn't last and we could, somehow, "catch up" for a moment."
That is exactly where I am at now. I'm always thinking will this be the last time I get to talk to these people??? And meeting with friends who do not know that I have been inactive for months is VERY strange to say the least. As far as being distant in relationships I think as a person having grown up in the organization and taught to just keep superficial relationships with non-jw's and not get too attached has been detrimental.
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Did the DFing policy make you emotionally distant?
by Open mind infor those who spent many years in the jw religion, what effect did the knowledge that your friends or family could instantly be "poofed" out of existence by a judicial committee have on you?
did it cause you to withdraw emotionally?
looking back over the decades, ( i'm a 3rd gen jw in my forties, mentally out but physically in ) i can remember consciously thinking about whether a new friend was going to be around "for the long haul".
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Well - the New Secret Watchtower should arrive pretty soon.....
by AK - Jeff ini hope someone opens a new secret watchtower website with all the pages scanned monthly.
wouldn't that be a hoot?
i forget nowadays - when should the dubs expect that january shipment?
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You should get a free plastic Jehovah with the first one.
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I am officially divorced
by Billzfan23 inyesterday was the day - that my marriage of over 10 1/2 years to my jw wife was dissolved....finally.... - i am in a terrific mood today!
my wife and i have joint physical and legal custody of the kids which is awesome!
she doesn't make them go to meetings or go out in service and she has to allow all extra carricular activities.
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Sounds like you did your homework and covered all your bases...Congratulations!!!!
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Well - the New Secret Watchtower should arrive pretty soon.....
by AK - Jeff ini hope someone opens a new secret watchtower website with all the pages scanned monthly.
wouldn't that be a hoot?
i forget nowadays - when should the dubs expect that january shipment?
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thank you ak-jeff.... what is the reason for this being given at the halls??
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Well - the New Secret Watchtower should arrive pretty soon.....
by AK - Jeff ini hope someone opens a new secret watchtower website with all the pages scanned monthly.
wouldn't that be a hoot?
i forget nowadays - when should the dubs expect that january shipment?
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Could you explain this new watchtower to me??? I really have no idea what this is all about...someone please help this ignorant one!!!
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Send me some luck
by Princess Daisy Boo inso, i had my second job interview today for a job that i really really want and one that i believe will put me on the right track ito of my future and the career i really want so if you have a good vibe or prayer to spare, put it out there for me please - i would appreciate it!!
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visulaize going to work and doing that job as if you've already gotten it....
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Is the Bible really from God.....
by REBORNAGAIN inor just from everyday people like you and me and christians just held on to it because it gave them something to hope for and put faith in?.
if it really is from god, why are things still so mysterious, i.e.
why are we still in the dark about the future?
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I'm glad to see I'm not the only one was these doubts. I've been seriously investigating things on the internet about the bible. From the myth of the flood and how it was adopted by the hebrews many years later and more....I believe there are many sacred books out there..But as far as I can see there isn't one that has "divine" inspiration...I think the bible is a good book to read..It does have history and alot of good advice...Now unly fundamentalist believe the bible to be infallible truth. But many christians have a more balanced view....You don't have to give up your belief in God just because you don't believe the bible to be absolute truth...
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GoverningBody.org is now up.
by James Free inwell, i finally put up the site.
the articles are nothing new - bits from wikipedia etc.
but i hope it will persuade even one 'interested' one to avoid the jw's - and even get an existing member to think.
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nice page..simple..precise...easy to understand..cutting out the clutter and just leaving the essential..great job!!!!
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My mind won't shut off !
by Maddie init is after 3am and i am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep.
this seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round.
i am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how i am feeling.
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Maddie, I'm not a doctor, mind you...but from the things you write and my own experience I'd say you're suffering from depression...Racing thoughts, insomnia, feelings of hopelessness for the future....Talk to your doctor very openly because it might be good to take some medication for a while. It's not miracle cure or anything.. But if you aren't sleeping as you should and not eating correctly, etc...your brain isn't going to function properly as well....you need to be able to make wise desicions right now and prepare yourself with the tools you'll need to overcome the things happening to you right now.....depression shuts you down, it doesn't allow you to function as you should....Whatever you decide to do I can tell you that things will get better. There are many here who have overcome some really hard experiences...I admire their strength tremendously and I'm sure you will also be able to also see the light at the end of the tunnel.....
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QFR: New light on Annointed? No more Holy Spirit than the rest of us?
by WingCommander inquestion for all of those in the know:.
i've been getting snipits of info on some threads concerning some possible "new light" that was supposedly in a recent questions from readers.
from what i could briefly gather, it states that the annointed don't have any more "holy spirit" inside them than do the great crowd.
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As far as I know, the anointed never had any special insights...some people in the organization thought this, but I never read anything about their special powers. The only difference was their hope.