when we were jw's we were constantly reminded to put on a "new personality".
now, before i was a jw i was friendly and easy to get along with.
it only took a few years of exposure to the cult before i noticed personality changes.
My " new personality" was an uptight, nervous, judgemental fool. Always pretending to be something I wasn't. Always a charade because the new personality never "took," and feeling guilty as hell because it didn't.
Now I'm still uptight and nervous, and occasionally still a fool, but at least I'm FREE to be myself.
and it feels so good!!!
FreeFallin
spiders!!!
i can handle any other bug, snakes, mice, etc....but get me near a spider, and i nearly have a breakdown.. this morning, i went to grab some clothes from the bathroom to wash, felt something crawling on my arm, looked down, giant, hairy, brown spider.
i still have the heebie-jeebies, and i probably woke up the neighbors.. *shudder*.
Spiders, dead animals of any kind, mice (they used to run across my bed in our farm house when I ws a kid) DOCTORS, and flying.
Not necesarily in that order.
Free (who's getting on a plane next week!)
wednesday is the big day.i am going in for rotator cuff surgery and i am very nervous.i have lived in pain now for 6months not wanting to do this but the time has come.i am also going to have bone spurs dug out that have grown into the cuff.
the scarriest part is the pain ,i am in so much now and i know it will be worse.wish me luck and lots of pain killers.
kls
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Good luck to you.
Free
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i was excited to see on a thread that littletoe will also be in fl as well ..ok so sign in..who's going to be there?i'll start the count...i'm planning on going with myself aka karla my sister, also possibly her hubby & her daughter.. .
Okay, I can see the headlines now, "Drunken elf drowns in Gulf of Mexico. Apostate faction to blame."
Can't wait to put faces to names!!
Free
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i was excited to see on a thread that littletoe will also be in fl as well ..ok so sign in..who's going to be there?i'll start the count...i'm planning on going with myself aka karla my sister, also possibly her hubby & her daughter.. .
I am, I am!! Are adults dressing in costume as well? Please let me know. Looking forward to meeting everyone. But I'm shy around groups of people and tend to over drink to hide my inadequacies. So forgive me if I wind up with a lamp shade on my head!
FreeFallin
hello this is my first post and i wanted to introduce myself so here goes.. my name is lainey, and i have not been to the meetings for about 4 years now.. i am 28 and work as a doctor in a big city university hospital as a sho.. also for my sins, i am cassies little sis, and i am staying with him for a little while, as i am signed off sick for the next month with a stress related disorder.. after the death of my older bro and my dad within the past few months, i started suffering from terrible nightmares, most of them connected in some way to my witness upbringing.. me and cassie have talked for some length and he suggested that i spend some time having a look on this site and meeting others who have had similar issues to face in life.. i hope you are all are better listeners than cassie, who tends to fall asleep when i am in the middle of talking to him.
(brothers!!!
) btw he hates being called cassie lol.. anyway i am not a big talker, so i probably wont post a lot, however i am going to scout around for a while.. thanks .
Welcome, Lainey
FreeFallin
i am a long time lurker who is finally ready to talk.i am not dfd or da but just walked out on a meeting back in 1981?
?what caused it???.
it was the flip flop in the disfellowshipping rules regarding family.
Welcome to the board.
a couple of years ago i was part of an on-line writers group.
a few of us got together and wrote an anthology of xmas stories called tales of christmas.. i wrote a story about my first xmas after leaving the dubs.
the book is being published.
CONGRATULATIONS
Now you're officially a "Publisher of the "good news!" Way to go! and good luck with your new shoes.
FreeFallin
today i helped bury a friend, and in a few minutes i'll be leaving to attend the wake of another, who died yesterday.. i have less than a handful of friends from pre-exjw days (nothing new there - we're all in a similar boat, i'm sure), so my more recently acquired friends are precious to me.. for those that i count as friends (which obviously includes a number on this board), please let it be known that you are precious to me.. i've helped bury about six, during this last year (i hope that doesn't put anyone off from befriending me).
every one has been like a hammerblow .
regardless of beliefs, or lack thereof, death is still an enemy to the living and the dead (imho).. with that sombre note, i must away....
((((((LT)))))))
I'm sorry for your losses. Death sucks.
Free
if you'd be interested in donating $us10.00 or anything at all to a campaign fund for vicki please say so here.
this will help determine how strongly we can offer vicki support.. i'll start it off.
i'm willing to donate $us10.00 to the fund.. thanks.. dansk
Count me in.
FreeFallin
