If what you did back then was the best you knew and could understand at the time, why are you complaining now?
I don't regret any of it. The way I look at it, there were things I needed to learn and help I needed to have, and WT/JW's-as-individuals provided that assistance in a manner that I could comprehend and accept. Now, what came along with the "good" may not have been all positive, but when is everything ever "perfect" in life?
As bad as it was, there was good in there too! Acknowledge both....and move *forward*.
AB