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Feeling a Bit More Normal

by Cthulhu in

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for the first time since i got out of the cult, i am now wearing a santa hat at work.

i feel worldly.

i feel normal.

feenx

Baby steps...

Baby steps to the Christmas tree.What do you know, it's way more fun to put up and decorate a tree than I ever gave it credit for.

HO HO HO

Baby steps to the kitchen.....mmmmmmmm Egg Nog

*think to himself, "why do people like this again? I guess not everything about xmas is for me*

Baby steps to the window....oh look...there's people with book bags walking down my street. In the cold and snow. Heh.

*thinks about aquiring a Santa suit just for such opportunities begging me to run down the street*

I COMPLETELY understand the feeling "normal" thing. It's kind of an odd experience at first, at least it was for me.

Being out for a while now, I laugh at many things that witnesses get so uptight about.

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Did you ever have an event that was a smack in the face to how long you've been out?

by feenx in

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i got df'd in 2002, about 6-8 weeks after getting my dog.

for quite a while, with that initial severing of anything/anyone i'd ever known growing up, she wa the only thing i had.. since then, like many, i pulled myself up out of the muck the org leaves us in and built a life for myself.. yesterday i had to put my dog to sleep.

it was sudden, unexpected.

feenx

I got DF'd in 2002, about 6-8 weeks after getting my dog. For quite a while, with that initial severing of anything/anyone I'd ever known growing up, she wa the only thing I had.

Since then, like many, I pulled myself up out of the muck the org leaves us in and built a life for myself.

Yesterday I had to put my dog to sleep. It was sudden, unexpected. And it's been a HUGE smack in the face...of just how much life has changed, I've changed, since then.

I think growing up seeing SOOOOO many people struggle and one way or another always seem to filter back to "the truth", part of me has been waiting for the other shoe to drop. Something to happen, externally or internally, that would put me back.

Her death, at least in this first day after, has created the opposite feeling in me. A feeling of.....WOW....look how far we've come, how long it's been. And how FAR we've come. The timing of her departure now instead feels like more fuel for my fire to continue building the life I've worked so hard on thus far.

I don't even know if any of this is making any sense or if I'm just rambling. If so, my apologies.

Anyway....has anyone else ever had that moment where you realized just far you'd come, and that while it's a moment of satisfaction that you made it out, and that now you're just getting warmed up essentially?

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has anyone had an experiance with a meduim /clairvoiant ?

by looloo in

when i was studying years ago ,my sistertold me about an experiance she had at her church , the clairvoiant said to another lady present that she had a dead relative present , named them and said "they want you to know they now know the truth" the lady laughed and said "i doubt it she was a jehovahs witness !

" i wish i could go but im not sure if its wrong to go or not as there is someone i would like to know if they are ok , have any of you been to a church like that or is it all rubbish ?.

feenx

Well I don't know about specific relatives/people being contacted, I haven't had experience with that. And like anything else, buyer beware. I have indeed seen a distinct difference in people who are clairvoyant/mediums, etc. etc. There are some that for sure are not as.....genuine as they may seem. However there are some people that have done readings on me, and others, in addition to people I've encountered that even without doing a "reading" are able to see things others don't. And several of the readings I've gotten have been very accurate.

As we all know being a dub closes A LOT of mental doors, put an ingrained fear of anything related to entities of any kind other than humans and YHWH's angels, it makes it very difficult to have an open mind to such things.

But when I finally got over that hump I must admit it really was quite eye opening. There is a lot that people are unware of, either because of fear, or assuming that everything is a scam. Don't get me wrong, there's plenty out there, but just like anything else once you get below the surface you see what's really going on. And there's a lot of valuable information out there...

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Gilead Class and/or Graduation Dates

by feenx in

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hey everyone :):).

i'm working on something i'm writing and looking alllllll over the watchtower library, such as the proclaimers book, to try and find dates for the first gilead classes.

i'm specifically trying to find the date(s) of the second gilead class.

feenx

Sweet thank you! I will try that tonight when I get home. Also, if anyone out there does happen to know the graduation date, or actually what would make me pee my pants is if someone knew the date of the ceremony where they hand out the assignments for the second class. I'm assuming the second class had the same five month duration as the first, which would put the graduation around the end of Jan. 1944, I think...

SO if anyone does happen to have such a crazy item of info, I would mucho appreciato

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Odd Nostalgia...?

by feenx in

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happy friday everyone!!.

so in the course of working on a writing project i was doing some research last night on ye ol wtbs library (which no joke i have placed on my computer in a folder called "barf") and lo and behold, after getting tremendously frustrated that despite it's self advertised awesomeness i still couldn't find what i wanted, in a moment of haste i entered in my last name into the search, and poof all kinds of entries.. for whatever reason i had completely forgotten about my great uncle being mentioned, well at least as often as he is.. so i start reading some of the entries, and it's all talk about his missionary work.

and holy sh*t, i actually got a little nostalgic for the guy.

feenx

wow....I had never looked at it that way. That is very insightful. Sincerely, thank you...that is good food for thought :)

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Gilead Class and/or Graduation Dates

by feenx in

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hey everyone :):).

i'm working on something i'm writing and looking alllllll over the watchtower library, such as the proclaimers book, to try and find dates for the first gilead classes.

i'm specifically trying to find the date(s) of the second gilead class.

feenx

You guys are awesome! that is a huge help!! And any more info anyone comes across would be a major help too.

Oh hey, what search string did you guys use?

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Odd Nostalgia...?

by feenx in

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happy friday everyone!!.

so in the course of working on a writing project i was doing some research last night on ye ol wtbs library (which no joke i have placed on my computer in a folder called "barf") and lo and behold, after getting tremendously frustrated that despite it's self advertised awesomeness i still couldn't find what i wanted, in a moment of haste i entered in my last name into the search, and poof all kinds of entries.. for whatever reason i had completely forgotten about my great uncle being mentioned, well at least as often as he is.. so i start reading some of the entries, and it's all talk about his missionary work.

and holy sh*t, i actually got a little nostalgic for the guy.

feenx

Happy Friday everyone!!

So in the course of working on a writing project I was doing some research last night on ye ol WTBS library (which no joke I have placed on my computer in a folder called "Barf") and lo and behold, after getting tremendously frustrated that despite it's self advertised awesomeness I still couldn't find what I wanted, in a moment of haste I entered in my last name into the search, and POOF all kinds of entries.

For whatever reason I had completely forgotten about my great uncle being mentioned, well at least as often as he is.

So I start reading some of the entries, and it's all talk about his missionary work. And holy sh*t, I actually got a little nostalgic for the guy. He was actually my favorite member of my family in a lot of ways, though because he was overseas constantly I rarely got to see him. But I must say I think he probably had the most balanced and realistic viewpoint out of everyone. Deep down I think he knew our family was kinda....effed. And he dealt with it in his own way.

And I can only imagine what it was like, no matter the reason, to be in dangerous countries during war times, traveling as an American.

It's very, VERY odd for me to have any kind of such feelings for anything related to the dubs, but I think it's really more for him as a person. I would be fascinated to see what his life would've been like outside the religion.

But nontheless, the guy had some balls to be the first one into Seoul in the early 1950's.......;)

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Gilead Class and/or Graduation Dates

by feenx in

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hey everyone :):).

i'm working on something i'm writing and looking alllllll over the watchtower library, such as the proclaimers book, to try and find dates for the first gilead classes.

i'm specifically trying to find the date(s) of the second gilead class.

feenx

Hey everyone :):)

I'm working on something I'm writing and looking alllllll over the watchtower library, such as the Proclaimers book, to try and find dates for the first Gilead classes. I'm specifically trying to find the date(s) of the second Gilead class. Does anyone have a direction they can point me in?

MANY Thanks!

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Anyone Know What Year Gilead Started?

by feenx in

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and perhaps where the first classes were held?.

feenx

Thank you :)

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Anyone Know What Year Gilead Started?

by feenx in

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and perhaps where the first classes were held?.

feenx

And perhaps where the first classes were held?